Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
yourstruly
Ephraim, Yi Qin, Qin-Qin, Ben-ben. That's ME! God have given me an interesting personality. I'm a sanguine, in another word, an extrovert. I love to be around people. Some people accused that i'm lame. Well, i do find myself guilty, sometimes. Of course, at times, you will find me in very deep thoughts. I'm created to be thinker too.
Sometimes i think too much and can be rather emotions-driven. Curious about my love life? Well, the love of my life is God! I love gorry, bloody and gruesome movies and thrillers, such as SAW 1,2,3 ; Mindhunter; When a stranger calls etc. Jazz musics are pleasing to my ears. Buildiing a strong and biblical guys group to win the world is my vision!
Monday, September 17, 2007
christain = salmon???
-1:35 AM
Today had a fun afternoon with bing liang, dennis chua, brendon and ding kiat at Jurong Swimming Complex! hehehe! we were quite disappointed that the slides were under renovation, as it was one of the main attraction!!! SOB!!! =X but nvm! we still had fun in the wave pool and the lazy pool! =)
Wave pool is basically a pool with artificial wave and a VERY irritating spray on top, which sprays water irritatingly! We tried to see who can balance himself on the float. Guess who win? -ME! hehe... 6 sec. But brendon cheated with 7 sec, but second chance! Bleahx =P
There was also the lazy pool! haha. There are very strong currents that pushes whatever is in its way ahead. So, you just have to rent a float, sit on it, and just be carried away by the current! WHEEE.....
Out of all this fun, God spoke to me too! ( i dun know why, but god many times spoke to me using water! haha.) I was sitting on the float, thinking through our NB and asking God why after so long, only one retained? Of cos i'm grateful for that one NB who retained. but... it's just not enough!!!!! Then i saw Dennis they all were trying to walk against the current. Being curious, i tried too. but as i do so, God reminded me of:
1. Christians are called to walk against the norms/currents! God have called us to be in this world to make a change. Not to rebel, but to stand up for justice, and the wrong values that the world is ejecting every single day. We cannot just float along and be carried away by the strong current, which everyone is doing! Like idolatry, fashion, wealth.
Likewise, the NB may not be responding, AS YET. Most people will just say "C'mon la, just give up! You try so long also no results!" But... ... NO!!! I will not! Neither will God! I got to just keep walking against the current of faithlessness, continuously!
2. Christians are to live lives at the edge for Jesus! As i was walking against the current, i realised that walking in the middle is MUCH easier than walking at the very edge. Cos the currents are ejecting at the edge. Most importantly, it is much more challenging and exciting to walk at the edge! So i was reminded that we ought to live lives at the edge; serve Him at the edge! Always giving our all!
To grow the group and to retain all my NB i got to give my all! ALL!!!
3. Christians must not be stagnant! There were times when i walk till my legs are tired. I tried to stop, but soon found myself being swept away by the strong current, thus going many steps away. In the same way, Christians cant afford to be stagnant! Stagnant is NOT growth! it's going away from God.
I must not just TALK about retainment and growth, but DO something!
Christians are like salmon fish! "Salmon can make amazing journeys, sometimes moving hundreds of miles upstream against strong currents and rapids..."
Today, do you want to just live life as normal, flowing with what the world is carrying us, to a road of destruction? Or a life that is against the norm, but excitement and fruitfulness is guaranteed?
Being a Salmon is not easy.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
the vine and branch
-1:51 PM
yesterday i had a wonderful night with God at my neighbourhood. for this whole week have been quick hectic, and i haven really spend time listening to Him. So i went down, and God reminded me of the passage about The vine and the branch.
Simply put it, these are the things that God spoke to me:
1. i will bear fruits as long as i remains in Him!
these words came aptly as i was just wondering to myself few days ago, why is the group still not growing as much?! i really dun get it man! And at times, i really feel like giving up! Leading the group for few years already, but man.... still not what i expected it to be!!! But He reminded me to just keep believing in Him, and remain in His vine, East D1 will confirm bao guarantee's chop stamp grow!!!! AMEN!!!!!
2. I'm not just His servant, but His friend!
God is not just bossing me around like a master, without sparing for my feelings. but he sincerely care about me and for me. He listens. He accepts. He understands. He cares. He loves.
3.Remain in the correct vine!
yup, i know this sounds the funniest haha. But the truth is that sometimes be can be connected to the wrong vine, thus the fruits that we bear will be rotten or of low quality. That's why, i want to ensure that i'm connected to the correct vine, like the vine of love, vine of patience! =)
6 weeks of holidays man! haha. Some may see it as a long period, while some may see it as a blink of an eye. What's causing the variation? -Simply by how you spend your time!
Some people will just treat it as another slacking time, to just rot their time away or to work their butts out. Of cos, there will also be another group of people who will see these 6 weeks as a time of growth and learning. Thus, the group that spend their time wisely will find time passing very fast.
Since last holidays, the 4 months holidays after O level, i've learn this important lesson about investingmy time, and not just spend your time! Just the same way as how we spend our money. When dun wanna just spend money anyway, but to invest it in order to reap a harvest from it!
Always set objectives for your holiday! Let your holiday be a focus one! I really thank God that there's dennis, my shepherd, who taught me all these essential life skills. It's not just some churchy thing, but an important life lesson- time management! Some of my objectives this holiday is:
1. learn dota! 2. grow my group from 8 to 16! 3. grow in self-control! --- run every wed! =)
how are u going to go through your holidays man? Are you going to spend your holidays away, or to invest it? It's your time, it's your choice! =)
Thursday, September 06, 2007
first day at work.
-10:41 PM
First thing in the morning, 6.30am, i remained in the toilet for half an hour to..... VOMIT!!! what an interesting way to start your day?! Empty-stomached, we traveled down to Suntec convention Centre to report at 7.30am.
8,30am was the official start of the convention. I was being allocated to usher at level 2. At first, it was rather fun. I like giving directions, guiding people, and interacting with people of different kinds. And i really felt like a tour guide. Because there will be some foreigners that will seek help from me regarding directions to certain locations, esp shopping centre haha!
Though i was fun, it was very tiring!!!We were (BY RIGHT... heeheehee...) not allow to lean against the wall, sit down- as it spoils the image. So i stood from 8.30am all the way to 2pm straight without sitting down. And i was freaking freaking tiring!!! MY DEAR LEGGGSSSSS........
Went for half an hour lunch break, and we had to drag ourselves back to our position. O ya, forgot to mention, we are all alone by ourselves! There were no one to accompany one. Worse still, We were not allow to go and look for other people to talk as well! So, it was not just tiring, but also BORING!!!
Towards the end of the day, i had to go to the toilet to.... VOMIT again!!! O man... i vomited all the biscuits that i had just now! They were DELICIOUS!!! But.. wasted sia! Btw, my vomit was the same colour as the biscuit that i had! haha. (a little explicit i know haha!) but the feeling was awful. I CANT EAT PROPERLY!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRGGHHH!!!! it's like taking my life away!!! =(
Anyway, my day ended at 6.30 pm, after receiving some 'scolding' from our 'head'. She said that complains were being received regarding ushers being slacky, and cliquish. and talkative. So that was my first day in work! hahaha. Dun know to be happy or sad...
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
couarge to.... DO FORFEIT!!!!!!! Stupid!!! =X
-1:03 AM
Today me, aloy, geck, and florence went for our job briefing at Suntec. if you are wondering what we going to do, hmm, we are just simply going to be USHERS for this Games Conventions Asia (GCA)! But paid $7/hour hehe. Not bad lor! It's quite a big event, and there will be media, and people from all over the world who will be coming down to speak and talk about games! haha. even though i'm not a gamer, it's like super cool! yuppie! For more info, check it out: http://www.gc-asia.sg/conference.shtml
Anyway, something very interesting happened while briefing. This middle-aged lady, one of the key organiser, was briefing us about the event and our job scopes. There were around more than 20 over people in the room. However i realised that she keep looking at me!!! At least 70% of the time lor!!! At first, i still find it okay. But until florence suddenly turned to me and asked "Why she keep looking at you?!" since then, every time she look at me, i cant helped, but to giggle and giggle. Am i some auntie-sha-shou?! HAHAHA!!! Jkjk.
But seriously speaking, i believe i was merely being attentive to her! I was looking straight into her eyes, smiling, and nodding appropriately! That's all. I mean, if you ever teach in a group setting, who will you normally, or should i say, enjoy looking at? Most of the time, it is the person that is most attentive to you, and listen with a smile rather than a 'sianz-sianz' look, isn't it? haha
Anyway, on the way back home, we did something really stupid! Sorrie, it should be.....I did something really stupid!! Arrgh!Isuggested to play number game and do forfeit. And guess wat?....Ikana also! I try to delay the forfeit until it got worse.... just see and you will know.... haiz.. STUPID DUMBO ME!!!!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Exam finish le!!!! Holiday is here!!!!! heeeeeeez..... =p
-9:46 PM
i know it's kinda late to actually be so excited about the end of exam, but i didnt get to post it! haha. so YUPPIE! exam is finally over! I think overall i did well. Seriously speaking, i'm not very smart. I believe many will say a big 'AMEN' to that! haha. But with all my heart i believe that diligence will ensure people like me become smarter! haha. It's the small things that go a long way isn't it?
Anyway, just wanna thank god for those that have been studying with me together for the past weeks. People like denise, geck ting, yanyu, jeslin, dennis chua, aloy. We have been studying in rc almost everyday. Though that were times whereby we get ill-disciplined, and just talked and play, we also had a great time of fellowship and mugging! (*thanks geck for be the joke! i mean.. thanks for being urself! HAHAHA!!!) Who says guys and galz cant have a pure and strong friendships?!
*Anyway, to you guys, sorry if i ever hurt u in anyway. sometimes when we get a little noisy and ill-disciplined, i need to be firm and get u all back. Cos bible says very clearly that there's time for everything! And we got to uphold that! =) Time to be serious and study, and also time to just be crazy and play! So let's have fun on retreat day!!! yeah! =)
but nvm! we still had fun in the wave pool and the lazy pool! =)
