lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
yourstruly
Ephraim, Yi Qin, Qin-Qin, Ben-ben. That's ME! God have given me an interesting personality. I'm a sanguine, in another word, an extrovert. I love to be around people. Some people accused that i'm lame. Well, i do find myself guilty, sometimes. Of course, at times, you will find me in very deep thoughts. I'm created to be thinker too.
Sometimes i think too much and can be rather emotions-driven. Curious about my love life? Well, the love of my life is God! I love gorry, bloody and gruesome movies and thrillers, such as SAW 1,2,3 ; Mindhunter; When a stranger calls etc. Jazz musics are pleasing to my ears. Buildiing a strong and biblical guys group to win the world is my vision!
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
...dreams....
-1:18 PM
dreams... dreams... dreams.... haha.. actually i dun really have a dream... by the way... is there a 'short-term dream' n 'long term dream'??? well... but i think in this 2 more years of my sec life... i really want to have a memorable experience! about 3 monhs had passed n i had some unforgetable things happening already.. such as the drama... n also the planning of proposal... n i am still expecting even more! yeah!!! but i think that so far... i really wanna excell in my studies!!! i am actually facing some difficulties in my physcis... n a little of my a- maths.. haiz.. i actually failed my a-maths test... but i am not
very sad... dun noe y.. haha... so i think that i really wana do well in my studies... all of the subjects... n also.. i really wanna see junayuan having at least 10 'hope' people by this 2 years.. i really wanna bring more pple to know Him! coz i mysself have really experience Him in a very true way! actually... i really dun noe wat to write... so sorry ... but i think that many pple are really stressed out by all the up-coming test.. haha... so terrified by them... haha...
-12:44 PM
Yeah!!! GOD's hands finally moved!!! haha... praise GOD!!! u noe wat??? haha... i got to meet up wif 2 of my new believers! two of them i have not meet up wif them for more than 2 months liao... haha... i still got call them regularly to talk to them.. n i have been asking them out for bout 2 months liao.. n everytime they will say that they r
'BUSY'... haha... finally.. after much fasting n praying... i fially managed to meet them up!!! they were so willing... coz when i ask them whether they are free to come out... they jus ask mi where n wat time n they agree to meet mi up! haha.. so happy! one of them(cai jin)..i have nv seen him b4! he is from china n thou he is sec 1... but in fact he is same age as mi... n honestly.. i expected him to look quite nerdy n will not be that good-looking.. but when i saw him... ... wow... totally oppposite as wat i expected! haha.. he was actually quite tanned.. n...well... his look is beta than mine i think.. haha... we decided to go to his sch... springfield... at 2pm... but when i reached there.. ha told mi he will be late... so i waited him.. as time pass by.. i started to get impatient.. n also worried.. coz i'm meeting the other guy(mervin) at pasir ris at 3pm.. n now it's already 2.45... n worse still... i coudnt contact mervin as he nv bring hp to sch one... haha... finally i met up wif cai jin n i passed to him the card that i wrote for him n a bar of chocolate.. we didnt talk n i rushed to pasir ris... however when i reached there.. i could see him i felt quite bad.. haiz.. but suddenly... someone called mi n i saw that it was mervin's number! wow!!! so he asked mi whether wanna watch movie wif him... n of coz... i agreed!!! n we had a lot of fun n i got to noe him even beta!!! haha... i think tat it was really GOD's plan!!! coz if i were to be so impatient n not wait for cai jin.. n if were to go n look for mervin.. which most probably.. i would jus meet for a while... then i will surely regret one.. haha... really thank god that i have been patient enough.. haha!!!
Saturday, February 19, 2005
sad...sad...sad...sad....
-11:07 PM
haiz... dun noe wat to say..haiz.... todae for ny caregroup... no one came... i was really sad.. jus yesterdae nite... when i was doing attendance... thre was only me myself n i COMFIRM going... then got 2 maybe coming... that nite i was really... REALLY.... SAD... being the normal emotional mi... .... i think u noe... i was jus so sad... i wanna do more for GOD! really MORE!!! but... y like that... haiz... really felt so helpless... then todae comfirm no one came..at that moment i was really devastated... really feel like crying out loud..... shouting someone... however... i cannot do that! haizzz.. so sad....
Friday, February 18, 2005
st john ambulance.... haha... haha..
-4:00 PM
haha... being the st john ambulance was pretty fun... i nv actually imagine that i would be on the stage in this 4 yr of sec life...well... thou we only came out for a while(an extra... haha..) but before coming out... i was still quite nervous and really afraid that i would make any mistakes.. then everything will be mess up! it was really fun n it was really a life-learning experience for mi! i had nv acted in a drama... not even an extra.. haha... n also... i learnt to work wif pple whom i'm not very close wif... u noe.... ...actually hor... marcus told mi that he wanna act one cos he think that this will be a life-learning experience... i could still remembered the monday after rehersal... we are suppoesd help out the props n costumes team.. n i think that the class was united... even thou some of them still didnt really help... nomatter wat... it was a great fun acting out in the drama!!! thanks mr ong for putting in so much effort!!! thanks everybody!!!
-3:49 PM
mini exams are coming liao!!! how?? haiz... out of all the subjects.. the subject that i afraid that will fail the most is... physic!!! arr... i'm really scared of failing physic.... there are still quite a some stuffs that i'm not very sure about..
chinese.. chinese..chineses.. it was the subject that i loved the most n the subject that i scored very well since young... however.. this year i star to lose interest in chinese... n does feel like studying bery hard for it... but i'll try my best...haha...
actually i had a lot of interest in maths... it is my fav sudject since sec 1... well a-maths is getting tougher n tougher liao.... scared cant scored very well in it... haiz.. but i think i can ba... cos i really like this subject...
btw... it is really haha.. i noe that doing early revision is good... but someone told me that he/she had started revison weeks ago... n i was like... diao... so early... i'm really horrified by these kind of very 'kiasu' pple... ee...
no matter wat.... i'm going to try my very best n really excell in my studies... n also ministry!!! i beta pray harder... haha... byez...
-3:39 PM
todae... i was really pissed off by her... n i think i'm not the only one being pissed off.... haiz... how she mark the paper one??? aiyo... mark until like that... wrong ans also mark correct... haiz... n she always seems to be in her own world like that.... as if we really understand.... haiz.... however... when i cooled down... n i start to think thru... well... actually... it's not totally her fault... we should understand that she not very young liao... so if she marked wrongly... well.. can only blame her age.. haha... sound rather sacrastic... hehe... i feel quite bad bout always asking her so much questionS... but we really dun understand wat.... wheneve i dun understand... i would ask the pple ard mi first.. but when i asked them... they said..." do i look like i understand?" well i ask ard... about 4 or 5 pple... n i looked ard n see lots of blurred looks... so i asked lor.. but i dun noe whether i m asking too much n did i disturb the class... haiz... ...
-10:42 AM
haha... i noe it's quite stupid to post a new year posting when new year is going to end... haha... this year is still the same.. money not more than $200... not this time is quite close to $200 liao... haha... dun be too greedy lor... haha.. but this time i would spending this money very differently... n will time spending the money like this... which to give for my church camp... haha.. i feel better spending my money like this... then to anyhow spend on things that r totally a waste of money...this i went to my frenz hm... n collected quite a lot liao... haha... alreday man yi liao.... haha... hope to be able to collect even more... haha...
it's all worth while after all!!!
-10:11 AM
actually... when pple start to be absent from service n caregrp for bout 3 months... they will star to play slide(backslide)... haha... n my sheep(melvin) haven come for bout 3 months liao... n i m really so afraid to lose this sheep... i had lost one n was so so so so sad... ... n i really dun wanna see another one leaving! he is really very submissive... obedient... n he always desired for GOD! but since sch reopen... he was so busy to even meet mi or come for ss n cg... however... yesterdae i called him n talk to him... as we were talking.. i asked him..."how's your quiet time?"... n i ans mi..." i learnt something new... that is 'following GOD's way is alway easier n happier than walkin your own way..."... thou i was jus a simple sentence... i was really GREATLY encouraged...( being an emotion guy... honestly... i had tears in my eyes... haha...) n then i realized that all the fasting n praying was all worth while!!! wow... really so happy... n i decided to continue to fast n pray even more for grp!!! really thank GOD man!! hehe... GOD bless...
Friday, February 04, 2005
Y?! ...GOD... ....
-11:36 PM
haiz... y is it like this? everytime wheneva we wanna grow the grp... GOD still to always be givng us probs... probs... n even more probs!!! honestly... i dun really like it... but there's the way GOD wanna grow us is it???? new believers went MIA
... own cg pple start to backslide and i really dun really noe wat to do at this point of time... i have been fasting n praying for bout 3 weeks already... n during this 3 weeks.. GOD showed Himself real to mi! althou not ALL the probs r solved... but i really see things changing... better!!! finally... i could contact 2 out 0f the 3 new-believers... n im able to meet up wif my guys! really thank GOD man!!! haha... i will still continue to F&P till I really see GOD's hand moved so much... that almost all the probs r solved! ...