Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me

When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation

Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king

Ephraim, Yi Qin, Qin-Qin, Ben-ben. That's ME! God have given me an interesting personality. I'm a sanguine, in another word, an extrovert. I love to be around people. Some people accused that i'm lame. Well, i do find myself guilty, sometimes. Of course, at times, you will find me in very deep thoughts. I'm created to be thinker too. Sometimes i think too much and can be rather emotions-driven. Curious about my love life? Well, the love of my life is God! I love gorry, bloody and gruesome movies and thrillers, such as SAW 1,2,3 ; Mindhunter; When a stranger calls etc. Jazz musics are pleasing to my ears. Buildiing a strong and biblical guys group to win the world is my vision!

-12:28 AM

aiyo... today really sianzzzzz.... morning we had APEL. It rather boring for me, cos i learn all these in church already, and i'm even teaching my guys to do all these le. ('m not saying this with a prideful spirit. dun misunderstood me) I dun mind if she could make it interesting.. But everytime she just read what's from the book. I mean if i go school from 11-12 just to hear someone narrating the book to me, i rather read it myself!!! =(

After Apel was Communication Skills. It should be the class that i most look forward to, but.... we are learning about report writing! It's like the secondary school stuffs. haiz... and to make matter worse, we can only get back our results for last week test only when school reopens! ARRHHHH!!!!!

Finally, we have come to the-end-of-the-day lecture!!! CSA lecture! Seriously, i dun dislike the subject at all. BUt today was revision lecture and i didnt bring any notes, plus i was super tired............ YUP! first time i slept 70% throughout the class~ haiz.... ( but i recorded down the whole lecture! heez. can listen while travelling.... I"M NOT STUPID K?! hahahahaha...)

Anyway, my stupid sheep is GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sob..sob...sob...... no one to 'scold' and disturb le...... bye sheep........





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-11:44 PM

I was pouring out to someone close to me, telling him how i feel about certain thing, and how i responded to certain situations that happened throughout the weeks that he's not in spore.

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-12:48 AM

i actually wanted to blog A LOT more. But, after talking to diff people and waching some shows, i realised it was too late. hahaha...

Anyway, i really respect people who falls down, and yet have the courage and the strength to pick themselves up. Anyone and everyone falls, but very few would actually pick themselves up and continue to walk! Many would rather fall, and just sit there till they rot!

Soemtimes people are so afraid of walking with a limp. They feel that since they cant walk properly, they rather not walk at all, fearing poeple around them may see them as handicapped, and imperfect people. However, my question is that which successful man in history have never fall, and continue walking with a limp? NO ONE. Look at King David, who was being hunted, thus, being forced into desperation and despair, yet still called by God as 'a man after my own heart'! Even Beethoven, the greatest musician ever lived, had hearing problems, but still walked with a limp. As a result, classical music had a hugh leap!

Such man are not perfect; man that dun fall and make mistakes. However, they are man who walked with a limp!

So i you are reading this, and you have fallen, dun be afraid to pick yourself up! It's not about what others see you, but who you really are! If you have pick youself up, then great! i saluate you! =)


-11:52 PM

For this whole week, i have been fasting for my guys to come for this june's camp. For my non-christian friends, we as christian also do fast. But rather different from the Muslim's fast, whereby we are only allow to drink. We have different kinds of fast like fasting from certain habits/meals/ food, and the time period can varies. Most importantly, we must have an objective when we fast. In my case, it's for the guys in my group to come for june camp! Yup.

So i have been praying really hard for them. Some of them do not have enough money, while some are due to parental objections. And my focus this week is actually to make sure i dun just PRAY, and not do anything! So i decided to go and talk to those whose parents dun allow them to come. One of them is andrew.

Honestly, I'M SO NERVOUS!!!! hahaha... So i have been planned out. 1st, talk to andrew to warm myself up; 2nd, pray with him; 3rd, ask the parent out. However, upon reaching his house, i knew my plan HAVE got to change! When i stepped in, and haven even spoke a word, he ran and shouted, "Mummy, yi qin come liao!!!" I was like "WAITTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!! I"M NOT READY!!!!!!!!!!!!!" The next moment, i saw her mum out from her room!!!!! Wah... thanks man!!! =/

So i sat down with andrew and his mum. I just wan to know why she dun allow him to come, thus i asked her. Then i explained to her what we do there; reason for the price; what does our church do etc. After my explanation, she asked andrew " HOw? U want to go is it?" Of course, andrew said "YES!!!" And then she just passed me the money and filled in the consent form!!!!!!!!!!!! WAH!!!! In the end, both andrew and his sister, antena, can come down!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe! Praise God!!!! =)

anyway, this is the link for our camp!!!--- firstfrontiercamp.blogspot.com

The truth is that, many parents WANT to know what exactly is their child doing in this place called 'church'. And the reason why they dun want to come church is becuase they lack that assurance. So, follow-uppers and cls, tips for u all: go your pple house! Trust me- the parents would blast you with many questions! Simply just assure them! =) I'm still expecting God to make even more pple to be able to come!! if u are too, let's continue praying and expect!!!!

Anyway, let me tell u something k?.... Dun laugh k?...... I"M IN DANCE!!!!!!! hehehehe.... last sat i went for tp dance audition with denise. so today the result just same out and we are both in!!! haha. My friends really make me SUPER pai seh!!! Me, melvin, xiyang and mervin were at the noticeboard checking the namelist. So when i told them that i saw my name, they exclaimed in a not-very-soft volume, "WOW, YI QIN IN DANCE SIA!!! WAH!!! NEXT TIME WILL GO ON STAGE LEH!" And there were other pple looking at the board too! they were like looking at me like some weirdo! WAH.. 'thanks' guys.... =/

-11:36 PM

Before i go into the main topic, yesterday star came to overnight at my house and we watch this jap drama ' One litre of tears'. A nice and heart warming show. Do expect lots of tearings haha.



-10:44 PM

This phrase have been in my mind since friday. It's just stuck in there. 2 people in my life have been telling me that. Well, the truth is that most of the people KNOW what's right and what's wrong. They know what to do and what not to do as well. People know that smoking is bad; playing too long of online games is not advisable, yet they stilll do it anyway. So many know, but so little do!

Many times, the reason being- lack of motivation. Very often, people around us keep telling us what we should do, what steps to take, what is right. And, very often, it's not as if we do not know about it. In fact, we may already heard of it so many times before. I believe that whenever we want to do something that we know we shouldn't, our conscience will knock against out hearts, stopping us to take a further step down the slope. And we do want to response to it too. But at that point of time, we just feel so hard to just take the step back and say "no"! It's the same as going down a slope is always easy, whereas going up it seems so hard, and we tell oursekves that we can't do it.

What we truly need is not someone to come up to us and tell us " hey, it's wrong", or " o my, it's so hard!" Because it's just stating the obvious fact! All we need, often, is simply someone to just give us a pat on the back, and say "Go man! You can do it!", or " I know you can!" Such simple words, yet giving us the incredible strength to conquer the unconquerable!

Are you waiting for someone to gives you that pat on you back? If you are, think about it. Maybe, someone out here could be just waiting for you to give them that pat too! Remember......

Take a break, give a pat! =)


-1:20 AM

these few days haven been posting because i was really tired, and had to do a lot of stuffs once i get online eg. check emails, reply emails, some other admin stuffs.

anyway, these few days, many things happened. Mainly people's problem. it makes me really think through things, and evaluate on myself. Today, we had our parents day service and a normal service before that. Attandence was bad. Real bad. 7 for service. the last time i see it should be... last year?

at first, at the sight of the numbers of total guys, I was rather sianz. but during praise, i seriuosly want to give god my very best praise, despite my emotions and circumstances! But when it comes to worship, i came before God with all my emotions, feelings, and, tears. That was the time i know i can feel free to express my feelings to someone who will fully understands me. That the time that i know that i can lay down all my burdens, and worries. That freedom is simply indescribedable! I had a great time hearing from God.

the truth is that, i'm really upset. I'm upset about what's happening to the group, my sheeps, and the people. why are they not growing as much as they should? Why isnt the group growing? Why isnt there any people that i can rise up as a CL? All these hit me real hard. It definately hurts. yet, i have this sense of assurance of God'd presence in my life, and that he is there! He's watching every single person in the group, and all these that are happening is in his plan!

A few nights before, i was praying to God that he will grow my sheeps and the group. Wow. God is very efficient isnt it? haha. I know when all these problem came up because..... WE ARE GROWING!!! yeaH! In fact, if God dun give us problems, then i'm worried. That's why i am still holding on to God's promises! I dun care how things may become, and i've decided, unless His will is done, i will NOT give up!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)


-12:29 AM

Rc is seriuosly in debt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The truth is that, i have never really felt so burdened for the rc giving so far. *opps* In the past, when we talk about rc is in debt, i'm like "O no....." That's all. Not much actions being made; rather indifferent. But after discussing with maurise on how to save rc, my heart felt really really burdened. $1350..... if i'm not burdened, then that's madness! That's a freaking lotssssssssssssssssss of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

" God, please help us! we are really in debt! Lord, we know that 'in debt' should not be in our dictionary. But we are in it now! You see our hearts desire; hear our prayer! This sat as we meet and challenge the whole district, Lord, let you Spirit move in the hearts of all the people, and that you would give them that heart burden that you have given to me! All we can do is to challenge, but what You can do is limitless! Do Your work in us God. You promise us that we will be the head and not the tail. Bless us as we learn to give despite our financial difficulties! Amen."

Anyway, i was teaching aloy when we came across this statement.

" Our primary identity is a servant," i said.

" Hmm, but i thought our primary identity is Child of God?" aloy asked, giving me the 'question-mark' look.

Hmm, i took me a while to answer that question. hahaz. what do you think? Is our primary identity a COG or a servant? The answer is- BOTH!

Being a COG simply means to be a servant, and being a servant mean to be a COG too. Because it carries the same meaning, biblically. An example would be a maid. A maid's role is to serve the household. But if the maid do not serve, she is not a maid. Though theoretically, she is a maid, in actual fact she's not a maid anymore. ( sounds chim..... hahaz) Likewise, a COG who do not serve, is not a COG practically, even though she may have received salvation.

So are u, theorectically or practically, a Child of God?



-11:48 PM

i have a new taboo- drinking MILK in the morning!!!! ARRH! Today i had some bread and a cup of milk for breakfast, and set off to school. I'm suppose to meet Xiyang for breakast, but my mum have prepared it even before i woke up haha. So as i was watching Xiyang eating his breakfast at business park, i can feel my tummy battling within. Well, in the end, i had a 'fierce battle' in the toilet man! hahaha...

my list of taboo:
1. mint sweets- gives me bad breath.
2. onion/ ginger/ garlic- simply turn my stomach.
3. dun make me feel physically dirty. ( winstar can best irritate me in this =/ )
4. tickling me in public places- results in agressive reaction
5. play guitar when i'm speaking- just distracting
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anyway, microeconomics is killing me! I dun really understand these few new concepts. The lecture is rather monotone, making me keep 'knocking-out' hahaz. But at least she's patient enough to explain. But my tutor...... hmm..... many have briefed me on him....... and i really dun have high hopes.... heee....... just pray that God can open my eyes and my mind! jia you!!! =)


-10:32 PM

yesterday was the last day of registration for Word for Life ( WFL). I saw the hobbies of humans- procrastination



Wfl was announced weeks ago, but most of the people flocked to the info counter to pay only till yesterday. It was MADNESS! There was so many people. I overheard a guy who commented " WAH... Like market sia!" haha. Yes. it was very crowded and noisy. Even edwin and ee voon have to become out 'part-time' workers! Heez. In the end, we OT (over-time) for one hour plus. It's freaking tiring!



When i reached S11, i was like a walking zombie. I still need to accompany dennis to go city hall to collect something from his friend, and then have a meeting. wah..........



but u know something? hehez.... i went to bed only after 4! I'm a night-person, and.......... television programmes are just simply soooooo attractive isnt it? haha.



anyway, i just found this pics. It should 3 years ago, when i went to a ostrich farm with a CC one day tour to Malaysia. It's a REAL one alright?!

o ya. i gtg. I forgot that i have Comm Skills homework. chiaoz! =)


-1:54 AM

" 10 rounds," i told myself as i breathed in deeply, and dived right through the water.

3 rounds have passed. 7 more to go. However, by then, i was getting tired as i had exhausted my energy in that short 3 rounds. Suddenly, this question popped up- Do I want to finish the race effectively, or efficiently?

Society nowadays, especially in Singapore, demands for things to be done efficiently. 'Do it fast, do it well'- a slogon for singaporeans isn't it? when we visit fastfood restraunts, we expect the service to be fast. And what if our expectations are not met? well, simply pissed off! many of us should still be able to remember the MacDonald's '1-minute rule'. If our food are not delivered to us within that 1 minute, we will get a free pinapple pie. That's just one of the many examples that exemplify out desire for efficiency!

But when it comes to building the Kingdom of God, which is our priority, right now? Personally, I was once again reminded of running the race effectively instead of efficiently. soemtimes i'm just too focus too much on " do it fast, do it well'! I want my people and the group to grow fast, meeting more people in a week etc, that i forgot about building it right, which is the key! it's no use accomplishing so many stuffs quickly, yet none is done WELL! And if i want to build a cornerstone for the fututre generations to build on, i've got to build it RIGHT! I need to be effective more than efficient! But of course, both should, and MUST go hand-in-hand so as to advance the Kingdom of God!

What about you? Are you running so fast that you are already wearing out and find it so hard to contiune moving on? Or are you running very steadily, so much that you are way behind the rest? Answer yourself with pure honesty, and lets' grow together! =)


-1:42 AM

Yeah!!! I'm finally back! haha. But you know what? It's the 'i-dun-know-many' times i say this exact same phrase already! haha.

I really want to maintain this blog well. This will be a place whereby i can vent my emotions, share about my life ( it's a comedy k? heez...), and my recent learnings. So, watch out people! Yi Qin's coming your way!!!!!!!!!! FUAHAHAHA.......=)

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