Let us burn for Christ!!!

God help me!!!

2008-08-19T02:28:00.002+08:00

just to update all you who are wondering what's going on in my life...

I feel so stretchedddddddddd!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!

Next week is my exam. This week is my study week, aka MUGGING week. Though i have only 3 papers to take, 2 of my subject coursework results i got D+. To even score a B overall..... i need to like get a HIGH A for my exam paper. So it's gonna be rather tough. (in fact, VERY tough! HAHA!)

As some have already know, ED1 have been divided to 2 group- led by aloy and star, to help meet the needs of people better and to see even greater growth!
With this new change, it's going to be a different ball game man! Got to lead differently, challenge differently etc. And sometimes i felt i'm not adequate yet. But i told God that i'm going to give my all! my 110%!!!

I wanna serve god so diligently that i'll make sure that no one in the group out-serve me man =D

Honestly... it's really tiring and can be stressed! (Can see from my pimple outbreak, And also my frequent missing of my bus stop due to sleeping in bus. =x) BUT... to see people's life changed and see people growing to experience god's love more and more... IT ALL WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!
yes, it's going to be hard. Yes, it's going to be tiring. yes, it's going to hurt.

but this is my spirit:

If by sleeping lesser, I can extend the Kingdom of God, YES god, I'll do it!
HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME!!!!!!!!!

Hillsong Live - Healer ( By Mike Guglielmucci)

2008-08-06T02:51:00.005+08:00

For many out there who love this song, you can't miss this:

After knowing the story, i really appreciate it so much more. As i was watching, i can't help but tears just came flowing down. I'm just so encouraged and amazed at how much faith and trust Mike Guglielmucci takes to proclaim it out loud. Man.... Hope it'll touch ur heart as much as it touched mine.

OASIS CAMP!!!!

2008-06-09T01:35:00.002+08:00

omg! Oasis camp is just in less than 12 hours! WOOOOAAAAHHHH!!!!!! AHAHA!
i'm so excited but yet so scared.

Excited becos i know god is going to blast many people off man!
Scared becos i feel very unprepared etc. Like hosting and challenge! HAHA!

but i really wanna trust god that as i follow and trust in His guidance, he will bring me through everything!

" ... I am yours Lord, I am yours; completely abandon to you.
I am yours Lord, I am yours; wholly devoted to you..."

so, cya in 4 days time! Gonna be blasted off by Him! bye! =P

30:48s

2008-06-05T00:37:00.003+08:00

Recently, i really love to go jogging in the night! it's so cooling! As you run, you can feel the breeze blowing onto your face. And you have the road all to yourself without keep shouting "excuse me!"

anyway, i just came back from a jog with god! It's really really really so refreshing man! Every time i run, God NEVER EVER fail to speak to me!!!!! WOW!!!! =D And tonight, i had another breakthrough! I ran a distance that i never believe that i can complete in 30min! man...... that was awesome man! The feeling of a conqueror and winner, being victorious is just sooooooooooooooo........AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Indescribable man! haha.

was just talking to god about the Oasis camp, which is in 4 days time!!! WOOTT!!!!! I'm really so excited man! Those of you who think that this is JUST ANOTHER CAMP........ you are sooooooo wrong man! this time round, i promise you will be blown off by the fellowship, games, teachings and worship man! God is going to move BIG BIG BIG BIG time in this camp! So prepare yourself for a real deal of thrill man!!!

BY HOW?

By reading ur Oasis devotion!!!!!!! If you miss that, you miss out great things man! I have been indulging myself in the Oasis camp devotion and the WOG, and i have learnt tremendously! and through the feasting on God these few days, i am preparing myself for God to blast me off the camp!

*** How much you receive from God = Readiness of your heart to receive!
Want to receive more than you ask for or imagine, prepare a warehouse for God.
Want to receive peanuts, prepare a teacup for God. ***

video time!--- 2 CRAZY WOMEN!!!!

2008-05-15T04:12:00.004+08:00

Gin is cool man! haha. I've watched this more than like... 8 times? and i still think that she's SUPER DUPER ZAI lor! haha. Anyway, she TP's hip-hop's dance instructor! So if u wanna be taught be by her, join TPDE!

haha. i'm doing free advertising for them lor! haha.

coming up next...
charice pempengo

She's crazy too isnt it?! She's only 14 years old sia!!! WAHHHH!!!! MADNESSS!!!!
*hmm... i wonder if i go heaven.... can i sing like her?... hmm.... wat do you think?... haha*

Koinonia

2008-05-15T02:51:00.004+08:00

2 cor 13:14
May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.

The word communion mentioned above in the Greek language is Koinonia. This word has several meanings. but the most prominent one is Fellowship.

in the beginning of this week, I have been Fasting and Praying to seek God about my own life and the group's direction, especially about the June holidays. And ever since then, i have really been enjoying myself so so so much!!! Not because i enjoy not eating, as that is absolutely out of the question! HAHA! So why i enjoyed it so much?

Simply because- i was in fellowship with the Spirit of God! Everyday afternoon, i will take out some time to pray. And everyday, God never fails to amazes me as i drew closer and closer to Him each day!

For the past 3 days, god has spoke to me every single day!

On monday, god ministered faith into my heart while i was praying to Him!

Tues, God spoke to me about certain areas in my life that i'm working on! He gave me instructions and encouraged me.

Today,as i was bathing after 1 whole tired and long day, i just prayed in tongues. i felt so refreshed! Not becos of the water. but because the work of holy spirit!

Many times, even though we all have the Holy Spirit with us, we never treat Him with much regards. We only come to him when .... our leaders lead us into prayers? or... when... we try to replace our "OMG!"/ "SHUCKS!".

Simply put it- we heck care the Holy Spirit!

However, if we neglect the Holy Spirit, we are like a cloud without rain, a tree without fruit, and a well without water! We can have all the systems, but we lack the content!

The Holy Spirit have been ministering faith to me when i felt so incapable and hopeless; joy and peace when i felt so frustrated and upset; strength to serve Him when i felt so drained and tired! It was HIM! it was not just some 'positive thinking' thingy. Holy Spirit has really been so real to me through these years, and esp this week!

HEY! Start recognizing Him as a person, welcome Him, adore Him, thank Him, and ask Him to help you. then together with the Holy Spirit, go to school and live your day, being so conscious about Him in your life! I hope you will experience the tangible moment with the Spirit like how i did! tc =D

my comeback!

2008-05-08T01:15:00.006+08:00

His word
YEAH! i'm finally back officially yea? Since March till now, I have so many happenings that i just cant forget and i really want to blog about it. However, i dun have all the time in the world. So let me just share some them to u:

1. I TRULY LOVE MY CG!!!!! HEEHEE!!!
Ever since 22/3/08, ED1 have seen how god moved greatly! There were total of 8 new pple with us since then! they are none other than:

Paul, nicholas, darly, eugiene, hao jun, kai jun, mandon, rasheed! =)

They have added much joy and laughters into ED1 and i really enjoy them so much! HAHA! Esp last week Labour Day Cg huddle has been extremely fun and memorable for me, and for many others too!!!

I shall not share in details. Just check out Yihao's blog (http://shinz-cool.blogspot.com/). But let me just explain why i, personally, enjoyed it so much:
- haojun joined us for cg huddle for the very 1st time! And believe he had a great time too!

- FOUNDATION. that was the Word for all of us and our group. And all of us were very convicted that we got to build our lives and ED1 upon the WOG, that will nv change!
[symbols of foundations haha..]

- pple went CRAZY! haha! everyone started to wack one another with the newspapers and went MADDDD!!!!!! Pple like howard(quiet one haha) and hao jun started to wack pple too! the scene was hilarious man! haha!

today cg huddle was fun too! haha. Had fun making the 'mango- banana-lemon- yogurt-honey- shake!!! HAHAHA!!! All 3 diff group have all 3 diff taste. some weird, some good. *Guess mine's the weird/ good one? =P

Simply... ED1 is so FUN!!! HEEHEE! I really enjoy leading this group!!! *thou i'm often kena abused..... =/

2. His promises!
Something really divine, yet scary happened. To cut story short, God gave me His promises and word through.... DEWEN!
haha. He's the SDL from west district! So no link right?! But God can truly use anyone and anything to speak to us!!!

Those promises really really touched my heart and convicts me sososo much man! (if wanna know, then come and ask me. =D) And after that friday, God had to 'slap' me several times, through His word and friends around me, to remind me to have faith in Him! YES, i may not be able, But god is more than able to do what he wants me to do! I need FAITH!!!!

these 2 are the 2 most that impacted my life greatly for the past weeks! there are more to share, and more photos. But good things must wait! so... pls wait for more! BYEZ! =D

videos time!!! =D

2008-04-15T04:00:00.003+08:00

haha. i was just browsing around when i stumbled upon these videos. O ya. some pple think that i'm lazy to blog, that's why i'm just posting videos. hmmm..... this takes MUCH discipline too k?! the time spend to find these videos... the effort to filter these videos... and how much effort i have to make to post this up! HAIZ!... bunch of unappreciative pple!!! =P WAHAHAHA!

anyway... these 2 very funny! haha. esp the 2nd video, at the sliding part! i cant stop laughing sia!!! HAHA! pls make sure u're not drinking any water while watching. i dun wish to see u wiping ur screen! haha enjoy! =D

Arete- polyDI camp's funny videos!

2008-04-05T03:13:00.003+08:00

happen to see these videos! SO FUNNNYYYY!!!!!! Have some good laughs! WAHAHAHA!!!! =P

featuring.... NURSE JOY!!!!

coming up next...... our business man of the year, ZIYANG!!!!!

WAHAHAHA! hmm... i'm loss for words!!! HAHAHA!!!
conclusion: East produces... 'TALENTS'!!!!
haha. so if u wanna be as 'TALENTED' as them, pls join East!!! HEHEHE!

Arete- polyDI camp's funny videos!

2008-04-05T03:13:00.000+08:00

CJ7

2008-03-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

hihi everyone! know that my blog has rusted le. yeap sorrie. So... let me warm up first =)
i thought this was rather interesting! esp for those who watched CJ7! haha

w/o love for pple, you can get out of this ministry man...

2008-01-11T02:10:00.000+08:00

this was actually what i wanted to post on tuesday, but was flooded by projects and tutorials. =X

i believe some of you must be a little stunned by my title. But... that's was my conclusion after one whole day of meeting pple! Without love, you can seriously consider getting out of this ministry. This is why......

Today i went to Tampines to and fro for 3 times!
I went to school in the morning. [1st time] Then i went to bedok to meet yihao for lunch. After that, i sent him home (which happens to be beside TP) and when back to school at 4pm to meet dennis chua. [2nd time]

I sent him home (it was at geylang area, which is not very near!) as i wanted to talk to him about some stuffs. It took almost 1hour.
After that, i wanted to go home to do my projects. It was around 5pm plus. Honestly, i was TIRED- of traveling here and there etc, and need to go home do project. So, when i reached my neigbourhood, i received a call from alfon (who's in tampines) and said he just ended his FU.

At this point of time, i had 2 choices:
1) Go back home to rest and do project. (which is a MUCHHHHHH easier and comfortable option.)
2) Go to tampines to spend time with my sheep, and on the way buy earphones. (which i can always do tomorrow or other days!)

hmmm... it was really a hard choice. In the end, as you know, since i'm a loving shepherd, i decided to go all the way back to tampines!!!! HAHA! [3rd time]

As i was on the bus, i was laughing at myself. Literally! haha. I thought to myself "Who would do this man- going to tampines 3 times after traveling from there to geylang area!" haha. And god really reminded me this "It's because my heart for people is in you!" ...

At the end of the day, i was.... TIRED. And projects were calling out to me. But you know what?
In my heart, it was filled with so much so much joy!!! Though i spend so much time traveling, and tired myself out, my heart was filled with His love and His joy!

Think with me- how we do know that Jesus really love people? Other than becos he healed them etc, one main observation is that He spent majority of his time with people! Time was the gift he gave to people. Time was how we know Jesus love pple. Jesus could have spend his time slacking, playing games (at that time.... maybe marble? HAHA! ) and other things. He could have sent his disciples to heal the sick, cast out demons etc. But becos He love them, He wants to spend time with them, and he step out of his comfort zone and threw away all excuses he could gave!

Knowing that i've loved like Jesus (though still far from his Standard) really makes my day!

*Health-check: What do you spend most of ur time in? In people or in games/studies/slacking?*

finally... my thoughts.

2007-12-30T02:24:00.000+08:00

today i was just telling aloy that my blog have seems to become a place where i account about events, only. I think it has been a really long time since i blog about my thoughts/learning/feelings.

well, even for today post, i wont talk much about my thoughts etc, cos i'm really tired now. My eyes are just heavy. But i thing i do wanna say is that i really....

....thank you, Jesus...

though it's just a simple 3 words, i really contains all my hearts wants to say to Him. As i looked back into 07, it has been a whole year of ups-and-downs, testing, and growing! And i wouldnt have survived many of it if it wasn't by His faithfulness and grace. Thanks. really.

thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you jesus!~ =D

east chalet!!!

2007-12-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

HI all! i believe that all of us agreed that X29 camp is fun, crazy, mad, exciting and ministering isn't it? remember our district was the most excited during the 10th anniversary which stood up and clap for EVERY district? What about the district performances? Dennis Chua chasing after esther with that freaking BIG chopper? Ah-bee with her huge, gigantic drumstick? haha. And do you recall the night which dennis challenged the district at 2nd floor at... 2am?! haha.

BUT... if you think that's all... YOU ARE SOSOSOSOSOSOSO WRONG!!!!!!! here comes out very own EAST Chalet!!!!!!!!!! yEaH!!! =D

For Cls (26-28th dec):
You are in for a real memorable and crazy 3N2D chalet! We are going to be a child and play many long-forgotten games! haha. Not forgetting our very first human CS!!!! WAH!!!! cool!!! there's many many many more stuffs in stored for ya! Cya at tamp small mac @2pm on 26th dec! =)

For everyone (27-28th dec):
Who of you know who's our very first district leaders when east started?
Did you know that Shirley, our very pastor, actually led East before?
Did you know that East had 3 RCs in total?
Did you know that East had a chalet at aloha changi 3 years ago?
... And, have you seen joy in her sec 2 KC uniform, cheng lee having her LONG hair and in her Green View sec uniform, dennis in his NS uniform???

Some sneak previews......

OMG!!! cheng lee!!!! hahaha!~

HAHAHA! wanna see more? Join us on 27th dec for our EAST JOURNEY, that will bring you through these 4 years of East history!

Wanna know more?

venue:

NETHERAVON

The double-storey terraces are fully furbished with living room set with TV and games table; dining area; 3 air-conditioned bedrooms, furbished with beds (1 queen-sized and 4 single-sized), wardrobe, dresser, bedside table and wall fan; 3 toilets /bath with shower heater; BBQ pit and a fully equipped kitchen.

Getting there:

Take the east bound train to Tampines MRT station. Transfer to Bus no. 29. Check out our map to locate your chalet and determine where you should alight.

Take the east bound train to Pasir Ris MRT station. We have a Shuttle bus service commuting to & from Pasir Ris MRT station. Click here for the shuttle bus service schedule.

Bring:
1. Cls
- $15 for chalet (bring at least $5 extra)
- bring 2-3 sets of clothes.
- running shoes (MUST!)
- shower thingy
- bible and sermon book
- guys bring sleeping bag!

2. everyone
- $ 7 for chalet ( bring extra $)
- bring at least a set of clothe to change
- bible and sermon book
- bring own sleep bag if u wanna sleep =)
- xmas cards/ gifts if you haven give

So, are you ready?! CYA there in the 26/27-28th!!!
HOHOHO! Merry Xmas!!!~

east d bbq

2007-12-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

Alright! After one month, i decided to post about the EastD BBQ!!! HAHA!

OK, let me clarify. I really posted all the pics, and i saved it under draft. So my heart was sincere! BUT....... heeheee... spirit is willing, but body is weak. heehee...

Anyway we had our very own EastD BBQ on the 20th Nov! It was really a very fun-filled and faith boosting event for us! For my cg, the confirmation we had was.... 23!!!!!! WAH!!! And on the day, total eastd we have 35!! And my cg had 12 visitor!!! YEAH!!! haha. It was a breakthru for EastD1! =D

The whole event was held at Sunplaza park. We met at around 4pm, and we had different groups of visitors with us. Introducing the 1st group, the 'F4' from Damai Primary:

Left-right: Howard, benjamin, wei lin. ( BY RIGHT, there should be 4. but dun know why kelvin not int he pics haha)

2nd group of friends:

me and mandon! haha =)

3rd:

left to right: jia en, newell, joshua ( joshua looked like a tortise isnt't it?! haha!!!)

4th:

the 2 looking up: ricky and nicholas.

Some were trying to ACT shy! haha. =P

last but not least:
the unknown...

HAHA! why he's called the unknown is becos... we just appeared out of no where and join us! haha. All i know about him is that... he's pri5... he play bb at sunplaza quite often.... and... HE ATE OUR BBQ FOR FREE!!!! =X
( ok la. EastD very giving one hor! haha)

So while waiting for the rest to come, we did these:

play crocodile...

playing poker and doing forfeits haha!

and also, having our EastD monkey, joshua, on the bb net! YEAH! haha.

When most people reached, bing and a few started the fire and... BBQ starts!!!

Once the BBQ started, he didnt have any time to run around to take pics. I was busy making sure that everyone was taken care of and people are not left out. Before dennis left the place he reminded me and a few others to play the game correctly.

In an event with many people, it's very easy for us to mis focus. As leaders, we should try our best to connect to individuals, instead of just knowing everyone surface-ly!

At the end of the day, we had fun, people were connected. And 2 highlights i rmb was the blowing of the 'balloon' with water all over the table, and the spraying of water! everyone was wet! It was awesome! Definitely memorable.

O yea, not forgetting, they celebrated my birthday. HEEHEE =P Anyway, I was so stupid! Cos while they were praying for me, i can feel the evil aura. So i took off my spec. And i was right! Once they say amen, cakes were splashed onto my face and HAIR!!! Mad lor!

Anyway, just wanna intro our fav of the day:

Hotdogs and CHEESE SAUSAGE!!!

And our satays! pple were crowding around for it lor! haha

Anyway, really want to affirm those who were there to make the whole thing work out! Thanks to those who bbq faithfully, talking and connecting with people, also to the planning team (alfon and minjie), and not forgetting our MARIAs!!!!

left-right: alvin, wilfred, joushua.

~EastD, we really got to start chionging! No more slacking! We have slack enough. Now is the time for us to do something! We keep praying for god's hands to move, but ever realised that our own hands rarely moved much?

SPRINGFIELD
CHAI CHEE
TAMPINES
CHUNG CHENG

We claim them in Jesus' name!!!!!
Let it be done!!!!!!
AMEN?!?!?! =D

East ULM!

2007-12-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

2 Dec. First time have jacq back in our ULM after 2 months!!! yeah!!! (even though she forgot to bring my present out! =X)

we met in the morning to buy food(the early bird =D), and waited at the mrt station for the rest (late comers are condemned! =X)

after one hour, we finally get on our way to Pasir ris park! YeaH! On the bus, some of us are just bored and we decided to... ... ... heeheehee...

OKOK! i know i look like a retard! =X

thank god i wasn't the only one! hahaha! guess who is she?

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Hope u are right! HAHA! she really look like a XIAO-CHA-BOR heehee! =P

Anyway, we found a nice spot on the rock and have our picnic, under the 12pm freaking hot sun!

Really enjoyed myself a lot spending quality time we the people close to my heart since One of my love language is quality time! Especially having jacq sharing to us about her trip in China. =)

o yea! Before i forgot, cheng did a stupid thing, again! Cos one of our plastic bag flew away, and she wanted to go pick it up. so she started running after the plastic bag. BUT... ... she was really... really.... haiz. Dunno how to describe her too! Just look at the pics and you will understand!

Getting both feet under mud!!! HAHAHA! BE secure k? cheng lee.. haha..

All of us were excited and high, and decided to just play ball game! From monkey to touch-rugby, to soccer. haha. Seeing one another running around the place crazily is really entertaining! Pls try in your own cg as well! haha.

After like 1hour, everyone was tired and wanted to take a break when someone came out with the idea of plucking coconut down form the tree and have free coconut juice! At first, i thought they were joking. But... .... see for yourself man!

(winstar climb all the way up sia!)

MADNESS!!! haha. In the end, we really managed to have 2 coconuts down and enjoy the fruits! heehee. so cool! There were so much that we have to pour into the water bottle! hahaha! What a joke! heehee =P

(okay, look at the 2 persons in the background! Aren't they just simply so... ACT CUTE?!?! HAHA!)

It was really a fun time! Seeing one another doing stuffs, and just enjoying one another presence. Sometimes i hear people telling me that they are afraid to take up leadership roles is because it seems very stressed and not fun at all. And in my mind, i thinking "when is serving god not fun?!" haha.

Yes. I do agreed that being a leader is not easy. neither is serving god easy! But one thing i really believe and experienced is this: The higher leadership you go, the tougher things will get! But the tougher things get, the more god's reality will be revealed too!

So what are u waiting for?! Come join us in our East leadership team! Be it CLs or ULs, you will experience more of god, and definitely, MORE FUN!!!! heeheee!!!!

*CLs take not: On 26th dec, the first day of East chalet, exclusively for CLs and above! yeah! We will have our very first Human Counterstrike!!! WAH!!!! Darn cool and exciting! be a CL by then and join us!! Stay tune for more! =D

East training camp!

2007-11-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

The day started with everyone meeting 8am at Changi Ferry Terminal. Punctuality was one of the highlighted rule. Thank god for those who are early! haha. =) While waiting for Dennis to come, the gals did the typical 'galz-stuffs'....

like... spraying insects repellent....

and spraying SUNTAN LOTION!!!! haha.

Dennis finally arrived and we carry on with the 1st activity: carrying sand+stone burden!

jade filling up her plastic bag =p

Anyway, introducing our photographer... Ah-be!!!!!

on the way to palau ubin- 3 hunks on the boat! HEEHEE! =p

Arriving at Palau Ubin, dennis brief everyone on the whole day activity. According to dennis, it will be tough man. And....it was!

There were a total of 5 teams, each containing 5 people. There were also 5 stations 'governed' by 5 different ULs- joy, me, bing, yanyu and dennis. Everyone are supposed to travel from one station to the other station on foot, with each group having the heavy load of sand+stone, and each person pushing a bicycle. Yes. No one is to sit on the bicycle. haha! So, from 1030am to 345pm, it was all about walking from stations to stations to win the challenges! 4 hours+ of walking! haha!

While the people are walking, i was sitting at the hut, waiting for people to come. Wait a min. You think it was easy?! MAN!!!! try reading a book with mosquitoes keep kissing you!!! ARRGHH!!!!

My station is to test people's memory wahaha! But it was not that tough overall!.

they are supposed to memorize the number combination and step on the according paper, in order for them to get from the starting point to the ending point! yea!

showing the number combination to amanda.

Angel's team! (from left to right: cher, siew ling, angel, esther, ying jie)

I was having my lunch with the guys who happen to be at my station, when suddenly, this bunch of crazy gals came and 'entertain' us! see for yourself...

no idea what they are doing? haha. they are trying to complete dennis' station! He gave them several dares to complete. And one of them is to catch a LIVE spider! it's HUGE and colourful!!!!!

i really admire their spirit and their courage man! esp ah-be!!1 haha. When they came over, we thought of telling them about the big spider to scare them. But we didnt realised catching a spider was their dare! And after showing them the freaking BIG spider, we were all expecting them to scream and run off, to find a smaller spider to catch. but guess wat?! They were SO excited about it and literally went all the way to catch that giant spider despite the size and poisonous look of it! For ur info, they really caught it in the end!!! I salute you galz! =)

After completing all the station games, we all gathered back at Mamam for the Ultimate Challenge!
Dennis have hidden all the 'money' he collected in the beginning under the sand. Our mission: to find the money-all there will be NO dinner!!! WAH! everyone was so shocked haha. But finally realised that it was just post card after an 1 hour search! haha. Anyway, before the Challenge begin....

some were resting and talking. while some were... ... ... ...

eating chicken rice!!!!!! WAHAHAHA!!!!!
(up-down: geck ting and joy-joy--look at joy's face! haha)

Of course, there were some who were very hardworking! aiya, i dun wanna say who la. i'll shy! =)

After one whole day of walking and searching, it's my fav time! .... FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha!!!! (but... i'm fasting from meat! sob. cant enjoy some of the good food! =( ...nvm, i mus rejoice!!! )

Finally, we are back to spore!!! During debriefing, dennis taught us certain essential principles like really seeing the value in doing what we are doing now! Truth is that sometimes, what we do or believe dun seems very logical to the people outside. Like pushing a bicycle w/o riding it; finding for our money in sand for an hour. We do all these becos we saw the value of doing so!

we also announce the overall champion as well! They are Jing jing group! yeah!!! WOAH!!! joyce was so excited becos, according to her, she never won competition before! hahah! So funny lor!!!

(left-right: joyce, florence, jing jing, amanda, yu shan, sally)

Though it was really tiring, it was very fruitful and purposeful! Instead of just having teachings, what we passed down and let them experienced was not just knowledge, but spirit! Believe it must have impacted and speak to many out there!

Waiting for more East training class!!! hehe. =P

East CL retreat @ swiss hotel!!!

2007-11-29T02:06:00.000+08:00

24 Nov. My birthday! haha. That's the point.

On this very day, we had our... very own... .... East CL retreat! We started out with a small but definitely not as easy mission. Look at the pics and guess...

trying to act cute? nope! that's not the mission of cos. Even if it is, i would have won easily, w/o acting! heehee. =P

hmm...or... is it trying to act like a complete retard?! OF COS not!!! haha. cos dennis chua would have won it long time ago! (joking haha!)

(left-right: esther, joyce, ying jie, me) --- we were the slowest at first. But ended up to be the first 2nd! hahaha! =)

(left-right: denise, florence, lestari, dennis)

YEAH!!! Believe those smarter one would guess it by now. Yes! We are suppose to be blindfolded!

Check out the video:

We were split to 3-4 per team, with only one person able to see. This person is supposed to direct and guide us out of NYP, and all the way till city hall, including crossing roads and taking public transport! Wah!!! Not easy man! haha.
However, arriving at the MRT station, we were told to unfold our blindfold cos we cant wear it in. It may caused disturbance to other passengers around. haha

waiting for MRT on the platform.

while waiting to go up to our room, we were bored. So we decided to take stupid pics! Dun ask me what we looking at. Cos, i have no idea either! HAHA!!! =P

O YES!!! Forgot to say beforehand. We were all staying in a room at Swiss Hotel!!! WAHAHA! Damn nice! Didnt got the chance to take the whole room. At least, there's the pics below!

swimming pool right below our room! so freaking cool!!! haha!

before going down for dinner, some of them wanted to wash up and change first. And some of them being weird, decided to be stupid! opps! sorry! I meant, they decided to... be themselves! WAHAHA! Take a look at the pics and you'll understand:

florence acting as... .. . as... .. . liang po po?

HMM.... cannot! Too dark to be one!

what about?..... .... . . . .

Africa tribal dancer?! yeah!!!! WAHAHA! (joking joking hee =X)

and next, introducing, our EC bimbo:

ESTHER!!!!! heehee! =P

And of cos, there were some who were really tired:

(dennis chua trying to disturb winstar's beauty sleep! tsk tsk...)

Anyway as we went down to eat, some of us went to buy tibits at the Peninsular Plaza, when dennis and joy try to act... cool? rate for urself... haha!

joy-to-the-world with her purple sunglasses! haha.

... while dennis had his orange one on! (a little alien-liked isn't it?! heehee)

and when the 2 come together, that's the ultimate one! hahaha!!!! =P

Having return back to hotel for some wash-up, we had a time to just come together and learn about something REALLY important--- LOVE!

Well, though it's something we often talk about, but it is really the central point and reason why we are doing what we are doing now! One thing that really struck me is that true love drives us to do the right thing!!! It is the motivation and reason we do everything! Esp as a CL, or any leader who is leading people have got to learn this important lesson. or else, we will just ended up doing what we are asked to do, or love w/o a reason! L.O.V.E!!! YEA!

listening attentively to dennis.

immersing ourselves in the Word!

After the teaching, we played- Blind Wacko!!! woah! was really really fun! Seeing people being blind-folded and trying to run around wacking people! HAHA! they have a lot of special stuns one lor!!! like people hiding under the table (joyce heehee); under the tv desk; on the bed etc! haha.

but after a numbers of round, something really dumb happens!

YES!!! Someone tripped over the wires, and the lamp broke into pieces. We were so afraid that they wants us to pay a lot . So we decided to pray! haha. CL have to be holy wat rite? HAHAHA!

all of us were trembling with fear haha.

In the end, thank god we only got to pay 100 bucks for it! PHEW! (as compared to the original price given, it's a huge diff! =X)

anyway, one of our all times hobbies- pushing people into the balcony and lock them up! haha! and guess whose the all times target?..... *drum-roll*.....

....... AH-BE!!!!
yeah! hahaha!

So our nite ended off with us playing cards, watching people doing forfeit, watching me doing gatsby commercial, and talking cock till next morning. Of cos some of us slept. but i really enjoyed myself very much having fun with people who are not just fun, but people who have also really given their lives to God and His flock!

Some people say Cls have a lot of retreats etc. And i dun think there's any wrong with it! haha! Cos i truly believe that we need to serve hard, and play hard! So, just wanna say to all Cls-

Thank god for your lives! Whatever you are doing now is impacting your people and God's kingdom in ways you never imagine! So continue be driven by LOVE, and to work hard, and of, cos, PLAY HARD! haha! Jia you!

to end off, watch this:

A diff DMM.

2007-10-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

today we had our Dmm at tp again! haha. 3 weeks haven been there for dmm le. haha.

anyway, today dmm had been a rather diff one for me. I led worship and first part of the teaching. Both screwed up. Big time man. (at least for me =x)

For worship, the atmosphere was rather stuck since the beginning. A very restless spirit from the people. For my part, one main problem was that i was too mis focused. There are times when i was like "ok, god, how? where now?" And like what bing said, when i, as the worship leader, mis focused and was blurred about where to lead the people, how can the people be clear and follow me properly? Thank god, at the end, i managed to save it a little. Still, a little sad.

So, moving on to teaching. I was supposed to teach for the first part, followed by bing. The whole teaching was prepared well. But ended up... haiz... ... ....

1. atmosphere was TOO fun. To the extend that people are unable to focus in the teaching. My point didnt really got across as well. Need to be more serious at times.
2. there was not much depth, even though it was 45min.
3. i had too much gap-fillers---"Okay"
4. 'Blur' out by people's questions or comments, even though some were mere carps.
5. Had stories and good facial expressions and hand signals.

overall- HAIZ! =( =/ =o(

other than the roles, i was reminded of this fact:
leaders are not superman. they are just the same as everyone, who need a little encouragement when in down times.
even superman himself needs people's encouragement!

i really appreciated aloy, alvin and bing who gave me a pat on the back and tell me "it's ok!" THANKS DUDES! HEEHEE =)

Just before u go off, just take a few min, to just send a simple but heart-felt encouragement sms to your shepherd/Cl/UL! I promise u it's more powerful that spinach is to Popeye! hahaha. =)

Pasir ris outing!!! HEEZ!

2007-10-16T03:10:00.001+08:00

Last sun, i had a really fun time ben, glen, alfonso and aloy at pasir ris park! it has really been a long time since we spend a quality time together as a caregroup at outdoors!

We reached around 1 plus and found a nice shady spot under the coconut tree and have our picnic. Should have bought more food since it was for 5 guys! haha. Had fun talking crap and listening to Ben's '7-angels' story! hahaha!!!

We then went to rent our bicycles! Sadly, we didn't get to roller blade!!! ARRGGHHH!!! nvm. We still had fun! haha. From one end, we traveled to the other end of pasir ris park, when we saw this Pony ride place. Never really seen a real horse in my life. Thus we went in to just take a look at the horses and pony at a much closer distance.

Climax of the whole trip= BEN's act of stupidity and lamility! hahaha. Check it out:

Ben find it very fun and amusing. So... he decided to go for the second try.... with MY bicycle!!! But man..... that was the wrong choice! the whole bike was stuck in mud!!! And the front wheel was full on mud!!!!!!!!!!

Aiyoyo.... after much struggle, we managed to rescued the bike up and washed it. Now, it was time for ben to wash up! He was all wet and dirty! hahaha. everyone helped to clean the bike, wash his pants and shirts. Man, that was dumb, but FUN! hahaha.

Overall, i really had much fun! Ultimately, that's what a cg should be, isn't it? A group that not just read bible and pray, but to do life together; talk cock together; do dumb and stupid together! Thats' what cg is all about= exp fun+exp god!

Man, i'm waiting for the next outing man! Where do u all wanna go guys? haha =)

some random pics:

guess who's that? (not a hard guess isn't it?)

Accompanying the person above to be stupid haha!

NICE right?! That pasir ris park sia!

aloy and his 'snow white'! =p

OPPS! kana rejected!!! HAHAHA!
(look at his face! hahaha)

beauty and the beast!
hmm... who's the beast and who's the beauty? hahaha

the wheels ended up with so much sand lor! hehe

wake up, you sluggard!!!!

Act cool sia!!!!! (hmm... cool? mayb not... HAHAHA!)

our super model- ALOYSIUS OOI!!!!! woah!!!=P

The End

christain = salmon???

2007-09-17T01:35:00.000+08:00

Today had a fun afternoon with bing liang, dennis chua, brendon and ding kiat at Jurong Swimming Complex! hehehe!

we were quite disappointed that the slides were under renovation, as it was one of the main attraction!!! SOB!!! =X but nvm! we still had fun in the wave pool and the lazy pool! =)

Wave pool is basically a pool with artificial wave and a VERY irritating spray on top, which sprays water irritatingly! We tried to see who can balance himself on the float. Guess who win? -ME! hehe... 6 sec. But brendon cheated with 7 sec, but second chance! Bleahx =P

There was also the lazy pool!

haha. There are very strong currents that pushes whatever is in its way ahead. So, you just have to rent a float, sit on it, and just be carried away by the current! WHEEE.....

Out of all this fun, God spoke to me too! ( i dun know why, but god many times spoke to me using water! haha.) I was sitting on the float, thinking through our NB and asking God why after so long, only one retained? Of cos i'm grateful for that one NB who retained. but... it's just not enough!!!!! Then i saw Dennis they all were trying to walk against the current. Being curious, i tried too. but as i do so, God reminded me of:

1. Christians are called to walk against the norms/currents!
God have called us to be in this world to make a change. Not to rebel, but to stand up for justice, and the wrong values that the world is ejecting every single day. We cannot just float along and be carried away by the strong current, which everyone is doing! Like idolatry, fashion, wealth.

Likewise, the NB may not be responding, AS YET. Most people will just say "C'mon la, just give up! You try so long also no results!" But... ... NO!!! I will not! Neither will God! I got to just keep walking against the current of faithlessness, continuously!

2. Christians are to live lives at the edge for Jesus!
As i was walking against the current, i realised that walking in the middle is MUCH easier than walking at the very edge. Cos the currents are ejecting at the edge. Most importantly, it is much more challenging and exciting to walk at the edge! So i was reminded that we ought to live lives at the edge; serve Him at the edge! Always giving our all!

To grow the group and to retain all my NB i got to give my all! ALL!!!

3. Christians must not be stagnant!
There were times when i walk till my legs are tired. I tried to stop, but soon found myself being swept away by the strong current, thus going many steps away. In the same way, Christians cant afford to be stagnant! Stagnant is NOT growth! it's going away from God.

I must not just TALK about retainment and growth, but DO something!

Christians are like salmon fish!
"Salmon can make amazing journeys, sometimes moving hundreds of miles upstream against strong currents and rapids..."

Today, do you want to just live life as normal, flowing with what the world is carrying us, to a road of destruction? Or a life that is against the norm, but excitement and fruitfulness is guaranteed?

Being a Salmon is not easy.

the vine and branch

2007-09-15T13:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday i had a wonderful night with God at my neighbourhood. for this whole week have been quick hectic, and i haven really spend time listening to Him. So i went down, and God reminded me of the passage about The vine and the branch.

Simply put it, these are the things that God spoke to me:

1. i will bear fruits as long as i remains in Him!

these words came aptly as i was just wondering to myself few days ago, why is the group still not growing as much?! i really dun get it man! And at times, i really feel like giving up! Leading the group for few years already, but man.... still not what i expected it to be!!! But He reminded me to just keep believing in Him, and remain in His vine, East D1 will confirm bao guarantee's chop stamp grow!!!! AMEN!!!!!

2. I'm not just His servant, but His friend!

God is not just bossing me around like a master, without sparing for my feelings. but he sincerely care about me and for me. He listens. He accepts. He understands. He cares. He loves.

3.Remain in the correct vine!

yup, i know this sounds the funniest haha. But the truth is that sometimes be can be connected to the wrong vine, thus the fruits that we bear will be rotten or of low quality. That's why, i want to ensure that i'm connected to the correct vine, like the vine of love, vine of patience! =)

Anyway, for some commercial breaks.....

take a look at my cg.. hahahaha.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=-aL7FYkd2Mk
enjoy! ~

holiday is here! hahaha =P

2007-09-14T00:35:00.000+08:00

6 weeks of holidays man! haha. Some may see it as a long period, while some may see it as a blink of an eye. What's causing the variation? -Simply by how you spend your time!

Some people will just treat it as another slacking time, to just rot their time away or to work their butts out. Of cos, there will also be another group of people who will see these 6 weeks as a time of growth and learning. Thus, the group that spend their time wisely will find time passing very fast.

Since last holidays, the 4 months holidays after O level, i've learn this important lesson about investing my time, and not just spend your time! Just the same way as how we spend our money. When dun wanna just spend money anyway, but to invest it in order to reap a harvest from it!

Always set objectives for your holiday! Let your holiday be a focus one! I really thank God that there's dennis, my shepherd, who taught me all these essential life skills. It's not just some churchy thing, but an important life lesson- time management! Some of my objectives this holiday is:

1. learn dota!
2. grow my group from 8 to 16!
3. grow in self-control! --- run every wed! =)

how are u going to go through your holidays man? Are you going to spend your holidays away, or to invest it? It's your time, it's your choice! =)

first day at work.

2007-09-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

First thing in the morning, 6.30am, i remained in the toilet for half an hour to..... VOMIT!!! what an interesting way to start your day?! Empty-stomached, we traveled down to Suntec convention Centre to report at 7.30am.

8,30am was the official start of the convention. I was being allocated to usher at level 2. At first, it was rather fun. I like giving directions, guiding people, and interacting with people of different kinds. And i really felt like a tour guide. Because there will be some foreigners that will seek help from me regarding directions to certain locations, esp shopping centre haha!

Though i was fun, it was very tiring!!!We were (BY RIGHT... heeheehee...) not allow to lean against the wall, sit down- as it spoils the image. So i stood from 8.30am all the way to 2pm straight without sitting down. And i was freaking freaking tiring!!! MY DEAR LEGGGSSSSS........

Went for half an hour lunch break, and we had to drag ourselves back to our position. O ya, forgot to mention, we are all alone by ourselves! There were no one to accompany one. Worse still, We were not allow to go and look for other people to talk as well! So, it was not just tiring, but also BORING!!!

Towards the end of the day, i had to go to the toilet to.... VOMIT again!!! O man... i vomited all the biscuits that i had just now! They were DELICIOUS!!! But.. wasted sia! Btw, my vomit was the same colour as the biscuit that i had! haha. (a little explicit i know haha!) but the feeling was awful. I CANT EAT PROPERLY!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRGGHHH!!!! it's like taking my life away!!! =(

Anyway, my day ended at 6.30 pm, after receiving some 'scolding' from our 'head'. She said that complains were being received regarding ushers being slacky, and cliquish. and talkative. So that was my first day in work! hahaha. Dun know to be happy or sad...

couarge to.... DO FORFEIT!!!!!!! Stupid!!! =X

2007-09-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

Today me, aloy, geck, and florence went for our job briefing at Suntec. if you are wondering what we going to do, hmm, we are just simply going to be USHERS for this Games Conventions Asia (GCA)! But paid $7/hour hehe. Not bad lor! It's quite a big event, and there will be media, and people from all over the world who will be coming down to speak and talk about games! haha. even though i'm not a gamer, it's like super cool! yuppie!
For more info, check it out: http://www.gc-asia.sg/conference.shtml

Anyway, something very interesting happened while briefing. This middle-aged lady, one of the key organiser, was briefing us about the event and our job scopes. There were around more than 20 over people in the room. However i realised that she keep looking at me!!! At least 70% of the time lor!!! At first, i still find it okay. But until florence suddenly turned to me and asked "Why she keep looking at you?!" since then, every time she look at me, i cant helped, but to giggle and giggle.
Am i some auntie-sha-shou?! HAHAHA!!! Jkjk.

But seriously speaking, i believe i was merely being attentive to her! I was looking straight into her eyes, smiling, and nodding appropriately! That's all. I mean, if you ever teach in a group setting, who will you normally, or should i say, enjoy looking at? Most of the time, it is the person that is most attentive to you, and listen with a smile rather than a 'sianz-sianz' look, isn't it? haha

Anyway, on the way back home, we did something really stupid! Sorrie, it should be..... I did something really stupid!! Arrgh! I suggested to play number game and do forfeit. And guess wat?.... I kana also! I try to delay the forfeit until it got worse.... just see and you will know.... haiz.. STUPID DUMBO ME!!!!

Exam finish le!!!! Holiday is here!!!!! heeeeeeez..... =p

2007-09-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

i know it's kinda late to actually be so excited about the end of exam, but i didnt get to post it! haha. so YUPPIE! exam is finally over! I think overall i did well. Seriously speaking, i'm not very smart. I believe many will say a big 'AMEN' to that! haha. But with all my heart i believe that diligence will ensure people like me become smarter! haha. It's the small things that go a long way isn't it?

Anyway, just wanna thank god for those that have been studying with me together for the past weeks. People like denise, geck ting, yanyu, jeslin, dennis chua, aloy. We have been studying in rc almost everyday. Though that were times whereby we get ill-disciplined, and just talked and play, we also had a great time of fellowship and mugging! (*thanks geck for be the joke! i mean.. thanks for being urself! HAHAHA!!!)
Who says guys and galz cant have a pure and strong friendships?!

*Anyway, to you guys, sorry if i ever hurt u in anyway. sometimes when we get a little noisy and ill-disciplined, i need to be firm and get u all back. Cos bible says very clearly that there's time for everything! And we got to uphold that! =) Time to be serious and study, and also time to just be crazy and play! So let's have fun on retreat day!!! yeah! =)

The Tp-ians in East! =) BUSINESS ROX! hahaha

Superman!!! haha. i think i look spastic! =X

ba...baa...ba.... baa...

2007-08-21T01:39:00.000+08:00

Throughout these 3 years of my life in yhope, i have had many many many sheep. I have seen God's fingerprint on every single one of their lives. How some of them grew from a super rebellious sheep to a submissive one. How some of them bite me so many times till i almost die! haha. As i looked back at their lives, i can only stand in awe! Awed at God's fav hobby- life-transformation! Weak, proud, prideful, rebellious pple becoming man of God that impact others' lives!
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Derrick. One of my closest sheep. Went through a lot of things with me. Thank God for you, not just as my sheep, but as a true friend. Thanks.

Chuan Jie (on the right). He taught me one of the hardest lesson of love- tough love. Persevered for more than half a year. I know that one day.... ONE DAY... he will come back to Him! thanks for being in my life. You taught me how to truly love someone. Thanks.

Nicholas. Perhaps one of my longest sheep? One year plus? haha. He taught me what does it mean to be humble. Many times he would feedback to me. Though painful, but aptly. One very submissive sheep. Though he have his own views, but he will submit to the leader's authority. He taught me many precious lesson bout love too! Thanks for adding colours into my life! For i know that there's always someone below me in the food chain! heez...

Aloysius. The sheep and a friend that i have known since Pri 5, 7 years le. BUT... i spelled his name wrongly as 'Aloysious' haha! I truly say that i went through much with him. Those times when we had to solve certain misunderstandings and miscommunication. Those times that i keep nagging about the area of faithfulness. One sheep that is truly submissive. Though keep 'suan-ing' me, rather sweet as well! haha! Thanks for being in my life to sour up my life and teach me many people-skills. Thanks

Benjamin. Came church for long long time. But only responded after O levels. =x One of my closer sheep as well! One sheep that never fails to make me laugh! hahahaha =P He's one person that is very child-liked, but not childish haha. Always obey without questioning much. A very trusting friend indeed. Feel very comfortable to just talk to! Dun look at his 'innocent' look k?! HE's MAD!!!!! hahaha. Anyway, though he seems quiet, he's one of the few people that truly possess strong people-skills! Thanks for adding laughters and fun into my life! You are one true friend indeed! Thanks.

Ben. Aka Pradya. heez. A thai that came to spore last year Oct. Went through much ups-and-downs with him. I believe he's the sheep that exp God the most! This is due to his Christian family background. Healings and miracles- he exp before! Thanks for coming into my livf. You taught me what is 'extra-mile' love! Thanks.

Brendon Koh. Came in sec 1, left in sec 2, returns in sec 3. Interesting ar? haha. One sheep that taught me 'Love is patient'. Also, one sheep that showed life-transformation in camp! Saw how he grow and change. He's a very teachable sheep as well, though he dun look like one! hahax. Thanks for being in my life to 'train' me and teach me many many precious leadership lessons! Thanks.

To end off the post.... let me show you this very INTERESTING picture. Taken on Suntec rooftop. Maybe they can consider us to model there! heeezzz.....

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Just for laugh! hahaha =P

keep on keeping on!

2007-08-14T02:15:00.000+08:00

yup yup yup. almost 2 weeks since i last posted. haha.

Anyway, i was just looking at one of my ex-sheep's blog. It really brought back a lot of memories. He was indeed one of my closest sheep and most experienced one. And as i just sat down in front of my desk, 3 years of memories flooded my mind, and names after names were resounding in my mind.... derrick, jeremy, delwin, chuan jie, ye hui, kevin, jonathan, alvin, di qiang... and many others....... .... ....

Many of them were people who have left deep footprints in my journey of life. Most of them i have met them up before after they left the church, and actually told me that they were contended with their present lives. But every time when i look into their eyes-the windows to their souls, it tells me otherwise.

Is following God hard?
YES.
But you will never get lost.

Is following God stress?
YES.
But you will never stressed out!

Christianity has never been a bed of roses. In fact, there were many testings that i had gone through while holding on so tightly! BUT, no matter how tough it gets, i'll not give up!

Last thurs, the ULs had bbq at elias green! yeah! but i went swimming and i sat down at this place underneath the 'waterfall'. i was really refreshing to have the water running through your body and you think through stuffs! I was just spending time with God whne He suddenly showed me pics of limestones.ANd i was reminded of the whole process of weathering of limestones!

I have seen a lot of freaking nice limestone in many shows. The beauty of it was mesmerising man! But the truth is that it was not formed just like that! It was after millions and millions of years of erosions by rains and rivers, and intensive pressure being exerted onto them. And finally, pieces and pieces of beautiful limestones were formed.

In the same way, there's how how life will be! God's intention for us is to be perfect. But he need certain ugly parts of our lives to be eroded off, and sufficient pressure are required ot be exerted onto us so that we will not be out of shape! All this hardwork will pay off one day, when we are finally perfect in His sight! Yeah!

(supposed to be posted on sunday heeeezzz.... =P)

FOP@ Rc!!! =P

2007-08-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

Today, 3 August, was a very memorable day for my cg! We (me, brendon, aloy, alfon, glen, prana) had FOP in rc while the rest are having it in Spore Indoor Stadium haha!!! In the afternoon, we brought brian and kai jiunn over to rc to play some board games. We played Risk- which i lose till like mad sia!!!! The rest all had at least 20 troops....... but me....... not more than 7 troops!!!!!!!! ARRGGGHH!!!! nvm! my first time! hahaha..

So after they went home, we just worship God. We had a really great time of meeting God and worshiping him! We arrived at the conclusion that we dun have to go to big big concert to experience God, but as long as my heart expects, no matter where we worship, we can still meet God!

After worshiping, we just started singing all different kinds of p&w songs! Most of them were simply out of tune, but there were a few that we sang in tune k?! haha. (Are guys really prone to out-of-tune? hmm.... should go and research on it. =) anyway, we just keep singing and singing and singing... and it was REALLY FUN!!!!! All of us enjoyed ourselves though it was just singing songs after songs! Brendon was so convicted that every year 3 august EastD1 will have our own FOP in RC!!!! hahaha funny sia! FOP in rc... u shld try it man! hahaha. Cya! =)

project project project

2007-08-01T01:56:00.000+08:00

project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project project= HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

time flies! Wheeeeeeeeeeee......

2007-07-24T00:39:00.000+08:00

wow.. time really flies man! when i look into my post, then did i realised that it has almost been one week since i updated haha!

As i serve Him and grow in Him everyday, i'm TRULY convicted that being a christian is NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER boring!!!!!!!! Everyday is just so exciting! I am no longer just living for me, myself and i. But i am living for others; for Him! I am not just on earth to take in oxygen and give out carbon dioxide and take part in the whole process called decomposition! I am here for a greater purpose and calling! And the amazing thing is that.... SO ARE YOU!!!! You are not here for nth, but for everything that God has planned you to be! Salvation is here!!! =)

Anyway, past week have been really great! Thursday had an mcg, after which we went to have dinner at rc to look for ben! On that night, it was another night that i got to run around like some crazy man! I need to print some photos at around 9pm to make a card for someone special to me. But most shop closes very early. And that nite, i when to dennis house to make the card together till around 4am! Super tiring! haha. But that's what we call 'The Extra Mile Love!"

Sat we had our ESS!!! Though we didnt have a great harvest last week, this week, EAST D1 gotta rock heaven man! haha! After that went to celebrate Joy's (my 'mum') birthday at this place in city hall which sells all deserts at 50% discount!!! Had a great time there laughing at one another and just enjoying one another presence! That's what community is all about- Making do nothing happening! =)

That's mY 'mum'!!! same birthday as my real mum! haha =P

Sun is the highlight of the week! 2 extremes occurred- one super happy; one super saddening (shan't share here =( ). It was my mum's birthday!!!!22 July!!! Yeah!!! it was really a memorable celebration of her birthday! That night me, my sis, and my mum order some food and just talk and talk and talk...... We talked about our family history to church ministry.... to even ghost story! haha. Really fun man!!!

a snapshot of my mum while she was packing our stuffs to get ready to move to new house!
(no wonder she look shocked! HAHAHA! =p)

My sister! Acting cute haha! They were busy packing, and i'm there, going around to take pics haha!

"do you hate your dad?" .......

2007-07-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

"hey, just want to ask, do you hate your dad?" he asked with pure innonence, without any intention to hurt me.

But, all i could say, was simply,"erm..........."

Perhaps some of you didnt know that, my parents divorced a few years back. It wasn't something that i never expected. In the matter of fact, since i was young, i always question myself "Will dad and mum divorced?"

Since i was still a young boy, i have always witness how my parents quarrelled over stupid stuffs, like my mum bringing us to swimming. I have always prepared myself for the worse. But the truth is that, when that day finally came, no amount of preparation would be able to prevent the scars.

That few months was indeed not too easy for me. i remembered numerous nights where i was laying on my bed, listening to them quarrelling outside, but could not do anything at all. Nothing at all. All i could do, was to cry and questioned God, "Why me? Why me? WHY ME???!!!!"

Silence was all i received. He didnt answer my question. He didnt explain to me why did i have to go thru all these! Neither did he send angels to comfort me! However, what i experienced was definately more than enough; more than i ever deserved.

Like what i said, he didnt explained to me anything. But what he did was just- being with me. Those nights that i lied on my bed and cried out to him, i was not alone. He was all the while there, embracing me into his big and warmth arms of love, comforting me like a father coaxing a his child. I can never explained how it felt like exactly, but it was just awesome!!!

He didnt just sent me his presence, but he also gave me a great family to cling on to! My spiritual family-yhope! Many people were there for me. Peopel like dennis, apinun, star, and especially my ex-shepherd-bing liang, who always tries to be there for me whenever i needed him! They were literally angels sent by God to me! (though too ugly to be angels haha =P) That's why i really really really really thank God for blessing me with such a GREAT bunch of people in yhope!

Seriuosly, i really dun know who will i become, or what i be doing now, if it wasnt God who picked me up from the miry clay and set me feet on solid rock. And honestly, my answer to the his question, was a simple "No." It is really from the bottom of my heart that i do not hate my dad. If you ask me why, it was simply becoz of God's love in my life! If he were to ask me the same question few years back, when i do not have God's love in life, i will comfirm HATE him to the CORE! I'm dead serious about that! I will freaking hate him for what he has done to the family-my sis, my mum, and myself.

But becos i have now experienced God's love, i can be able to say with full confidence that i still love him. Though i do not know where he is now, what he is doing right now, i really hope that one day, i will be able to meet him and share to him about God's love. He needs it more than anyone!

"What will you do if he's ..... dead?" He asked with great caution.

This was my answer " I would want to be there, by his bedside, sharing to him about how God have changed my life, before he's dead. Though he left a scar in my heart, i will still want him to be in heaven with me. I do not have a wholesome family on earth. But, when i'm in heaven, the least i would want- a family reunion."

summary

2007-07-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

haha... didnt really have the energy to blog too long.

Now feeling rather sick. Since morning, i can SENSE that i'm going to fall sick. It's not physcologically, but it's just that you will know it when your body is going to fall ill. Body aches, slight flu, feeling feverish. HOPEFULLY is not DENGUE!!!!!!!! ARRHHHH!!!! Kana stung by a mosquitoe that really look like a.....

aedes mosquito!!!!!!!!!! help me GOD!!!!! arrr!!!!!

anyway, today had a mcg. we had 3 visitors!!!!! Yeah!!!! To EAST D1: Hey guys! thank god for your effort today! I know many of us have tried our best in calling your friends down, but kana rejected a lot too. It's ok! You have done your best! Also, i think everyone did really great in helping to connect with the visitors! We talked to them and make them feel welcome. thanks! Let's continue to work towards 20 by and August!! By faith!!! Amen?! =)

Just to let you all know, my next week will be more taxing. Currently, i have 3 projects on my hands , and the deadlines are drawing nearer each day! And all are done in groups. meaning, we will need even more meetings and co-ordination!!! MADNESS!!!! So do keep me in prayer that i'll continue to stay close with God, and hear from him! =)

Just to share something that i learnt this week:
You can have a skillful hands, and a sincere heart to learn and to serve god. But what's more important is to have a pure hands and a pure heart, so that God's anointing and blessings will be overflowing in your life! take carez. jia you for CG08!!! =)

*A nice song to recommend! Go download it haha.=P

2007-07-09T01:58:00.000+08:00

Big Daddy Weave - Every Time I Breathe
From the album: Every Time I Breathe

I am sure all of heaven’s heard me cry
As I tell You all the reasons why
This life is just too hard

But day by day
Without failI’m finding everything I need
And everything that You are
To me

Chorus:
Every time I breathe You seem a little bit closer
I never want to leave
I want to stay in Your warm embrace
Oh basking in the glory shining from Your face
And every time I get another glimpse of Your heart
I realize it’s true
That You are so marvelous God
And I am so in love with You

Now how could I after knowing One so great
Respond to You in any way
That’s less than all I have to give
But by Your grace I want to love You not with what I say
But everydayIn a way that my life is lived

Chorus:

Wrapped in Your mercy I want to live and never leave
I am held by how humble
Yet overwhelmed by Your majesty
Captured by grace and now I’m finding I am free
You are marvelous God
And knowing You is everything

Chorus:

i felt so 'crucified'!!!!

2007-07-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

My 3 blisters have really tortured me like MAD!!! i have never in my whole entire life kana THREE blisters at one goal! 1 at the right left (big toe there), 2 on left (one at big toe, one and the last toe). Seriously, zong 4D also not so zhun! Walking was so so so so so hard already man!

When i reached home, the first thing i did was to burst open the 2 biggest one. they were at the big toes! But i was so stupid!!! i forgot that i should do it after i bath!!!! ARRH! Therefore, i when into the toilet and the thing i did was..... OOOUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
This was due to the FLESH of my foot was exposed to the water!! Just imagine your open flesh got soaked into water!!! OUCH!!!!!! My mum suggested that pasting a plaster may cease the pain. But.....
OOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was NO BETTER!!!

In the end, i had to take a chair into the toilet and sit on it while bathing, so as to ensure my flesh is not exposed to TOO much water. It was a torture man! And it just dawned upon me that what i was going through was perhaps 5% of what jesus had beared for my sins! i was just so amazed at that moment. In the same way how jesus suffered for sins of all man kind, i hope that my little suffer may bring salvations to the 7 of them man! Amen! =)

When you are in God's plan, you can't run!

2007-07-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

Today God blessed me in a very interesting way. I was at Blk 800+ bus stop waiting for bus 293. I was listening to a podcast when i saw these 2 junyuan lower sec guys. God prompted me to approached them, but i was....simply.....lazy! haha. i boarded the bus and realised that they were right behind me. But i just acted as if i didnt see them. Then at the next stop, a springfield guy board the bus! I CHOOSE to ignore him too. The excuse that i gave was that he looks plump! OMG!!! I"M SO SINFUL!!! *sob sob...... (I repented le! =/ )

Soon, the bus was turning into the Blk 700+ area. As i browse through the view outside, i saw that there were a bunch of SPRINGFIELD LOWER SEC GUYS at the basketball court!!!! Honestly, my very first thought was " I see nothing, God!" Then God prompted me to alight at the next stop and get to know them. But i was so scared as i dun not have any surveys or paper with me! Thus, i started to reasoned out with God, telling him all the excuses why i shouldnt go down. But god gave me the ultimate question- DO YOU REALLY WANT TO SEE SPRINGFIELD GROW?!

"...y..e...s....", i replied with tons of guilt and fear, as i already gave up on the previous 3 guys.
" Show it through your actions then!" God simply put it across.
i was totally dumbfounded. =X. In the end, at the moment when the door almost closed, i quickly rushed out of the bus before i turn back on my words. =1

As i walked towards the basketball court, i was thinking of how to approached them as i was not equipped with surveys and papers. So upon reaching, i sat at one of the side-benches thinking of what other ways. I was looking at them playing when suddenly the ball flew past me and one of them ran towards my direction. God prompted me to asked that guy whether i can join them, but i was questioning god whether it's the right time. So........ i gave it a pass! But the truth is that when you are in God's plan, you can't run away! The ball flew past me the second time and this time round, i knew i got to ask!!!

"Hey, can i join you all? Since you all are playing 3 vs 4." they all looked at one another and then agreed! (just for info, i dun really play bb= i cant really play well!) HEEZ.... So i joined them to play, 'barefooted-ly'. Guess what? within 10min into game, i realised i had 2 BLISTER on both my foot!!!! (at end of game, i had 3!!!) OMG!!! it's freaking painful!!!!! So i had to wear my slippers and run, which was so uncomfortable! ARRH!!!

However, in the end of the day, I got all their no!!!! hahaz. they were all very responsive, esp 5 of them!!!! We sat down after the game and just talked and slack! SO COOL! Really thank God man!!!!! 7 contacts!!!! WAH! =)

Hey guys and galz! Sometimes, we may be afraid to do certain things for God. And i wanna congrats you! Cos it's perfectly NORMAL!!!! Sometimes serving god is just so scary as we always got to step out of our comfort zone and face the unknown! But, what differentiate normal christians from christians who do great things for God is that though they fear, they are willing to simply take another step of faith and say "God, though i'm scared, here i am, use me!!!"

During this CG08, you can choose to just let it be another evangelism activity. But of cos, you can also choose to let it be the most memorable period of your life, by choosing to step out in faith and do things that you nv try before; going to places where no man have gone before! The choice is up to you. Hope to see you at the end of the race man! take care, jia you!=)

teachers of the Word--- WATCH OUT!!! (Part 2)

2007-07-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

Wow! you really have patience! haha. Cos there was another test of my commitment to my another sheep, aloy.

As we were riding halfway thru, he was sharing about tml he got to be at rc at 11am for housekeeping. Initially, when he asked me whether i can go, i told him i cant. becos the next day, at 2.30pm i have to attend Combined Team Rally (CTM); after that Dennis meeting the ULs; and then celebrating apinun's birthday. So it will be a long day for me and i didnt want to be a 'walking zombie' on sun! after explaining myself, he just replied with a "orh, then nvm lor". I didnt really realised anything wrong until i noticed that he was rather quiet for quite soemtime.

So i went up to him and asked whether everything is alright. Though he said he's ok, it was obvious that he wasnt! So i asked again, and in fact he felt a little 'unfair', saying "You all so good. no need to wake up early. Only i need to wake up early to do housekeeping." After listening to him, i told him that i'll be at rc at 11am to do housekeeping with you. Though at first he rejected my help, i insisted on coming down. But guess what?.... My heart was crying out "NO!!!!!!!!!" haha... anyway, i still went down the next day!

But the whole journey to rc was really a tough mind battle! before i leave the house, i was thinking "should i go down? i haven sleep for whole day le. i'll be a zombie later leh....And he dun really need me afterall since there will be others helping him. And he........." All sorts of reasons were bombarding my mind all the way from my house till on bus 291 to rc. even on the bus 291, i was thinking of just letting the bus turn back to interchange and i'll take a bus back home to sleep.

The truth is that all the reasonings that came to me mind were REAL REASONS! It was not excuses. i was really DEAD tired! I really had the right to not go for the housekeeping as there were really the housekeeping team to be there to clean! HOWEVER, i really wanted to show aloy that i am committed to him as a shepherd, leader and friend!

At the end of the day, i arrived at rc and realised that housekeeping is cancelled! hahaha! What a joke man! Of cos, I still went for all the meetings. But, everyone who met me knew somthing's wrong with me. I was not the 'active and crappy' yi qin. I was tired. The fatigue even affected me till monday!

even so, i didnt regretted! Becos i was really convicted of what i did- committment to my sheep! =)

teachers of the Word--- WATCH OUT!!!

2007-07-02T00:45:00.000+08:00

Being the teachers of the word is really not easy man. God will surely test you in what ever that you teach. continue to stay tune and you will know why....

I was teaching my group on thursday about 'how to love your neighbours', and the 2 main points were 'Love despite personal differences' and 'Love despite inconvenience'. God is really quick enough to act!

Love despite personal differences....
on sat, alfonso invited this guy who approached him at interchange for Flag-day. so on my way to meet them, i was asking aloy how was this guy. His reply was "err... later you come you take over. You come and see and you will know liao..." In my mind i was thinking "wah... got so bad ar?" so i went to meet them with a great sense of expectation of what is to come! =)

When i reach somerset and met up with them, i was surprised to see a rather tall and plump guy wearing a blue t-shirt and black shorts. On his waist was a bulky looking pounch and he was carrying a backpack, being pull up to the max, and holding a big yellow umbrella and 2 newspapers on both his hands. The scene was rather funny haha. So i asked aloy whether he was the ONE, and he nodded, with a cheeky grin on his face. I went up to him and talked to him and in the end, took care of him during service. He was one of those people that really made me dun know what to do to him!

during praise, he was looking around and even turned and talked to a guy visitor behind him that happened to be in the same school (simei ITE) as him. The people around him knew the visitor felt uncomfortable, but we/ i cant do anything! Cos he ignored me when i tried to asked him turnback first. But the worse has yet to come!!! During sermon, he fell asleep and.... he.... SNORED!!!!!!!! I tried to coughly loudly to just to wake him up whenever he started snoring. But it was useless. I almost vomitted while coughing! Then i tried to shake my legs to vibrate him. But, no use sia! In the end, I simply woke him up!!! haha =p

Anyway, this wasnt his fault actually. Cos he has lower IQ and simply, he's slower than many of us. he's 21 years old, but still in ITE. Yet, God still use him to test me whether i can love peopel who are different from me. Well, how to i scored?.... I think i scored not too bad. cos i didnt really felt irritated or impatient with him! I was, in fact, very patient with him and really geninuely cared and talked to him! YEAH!!!

Love despite inconvenience...
"true love cost; true love hurts; and true love empties ourselves..." How true man! On the very same day, some of the East D2 guys are going to night cycling with a few transferred brothers to catch up with them. bing liang asked my grp who want to join them.

Actually i wasnt very keen in going as i dun really see any point in going. And... i need to meet my own grads that have been transferred to catch up with them too. By the time i finished meeting them, it will be like around 11 plus, 12 plus already. By then, i will be SUPER tired. But then........ my sheep, brendon, said that he wants to join them. As a good leader, a good shepherd, i dun wanna him to be the only East D1 to be there.
Making things worse, the bike rental shop closes at 9.30pm. This means that if i cant be there by 9.30pm, i will need to borrow bikes from my friends. The struggle in my mind was really intense!!! Haiz.... to cut it short, in the end.... i decided to go for both =)

Now that i decided to go for it, i need to ask around to borrow 2 bikes. One for me, another for aloy, who decided to accompanied me. [thanks aloy! =)] within 2 hours, i almost asked close to 20 people just for 2 bicylces! Bill comfirmed explode! but i had no choice. or else, how to go find them at sepang bedok ( Simei ITE there)?! In the end, i went through a lot of hardships to just find that 2 bikes!!!! (shall not elaborate, but thanks pei chyi and wei xiong! =0) By the time everything was settles, it was already 1 plus!!! I was really DEAD tired!!!! And i still got to cycle from Tampines blk 864 to sepang bedok, which i dun even know exactly where!!! The thought of cycling there and try to locate the place really pushed me to give up. but I already promised brendon i'll be there. therefore, i persevered and we went to meet them up and for the whole night, we cycled from sepang bedok to Changi village, and then back to tampines and took a bus back home. Stinky and 'dead', i FINALLY reached home at 9.30am!!!!!!!!!! FREAKING TIRED!!!!!!!!!

While bathing, i questioned myself. Why did i do all these? Is it just becos i want to be a man of my words? or is it becos i dun wanna abandon brendon there?.....
Conclusion: simply becos..... I really love him as my sheep! That's why i didnt want to leave him alone there, and i want to be there with him! This was really one of the toughest test that God made me went thru to test how much i really love my people....
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living for others

2007-06-30T01:17:00.000+08:00

If you are feeling a little down and empty inside, and you don't know why, read on.
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When you look at a cheerful and helpful person, you must be thinking, 'This person has all the things that he needed, that's why he is able to help others.'

Nope.

It's just that the person is big-hearted enough to think of others' well-being before his. And when he helps others, his reward is the irreplaceable joy that's better than having his needs met. This is what I see in some of the DIans. So needy, yet so selfless. It doesn't take a Mother Theresa to be selfless, you know.

Behind every face, there is a story to tell. Everyone wants his/her story to be known no matter how much they deny it. There is just simply no perfectly positive and whole person. But we can't have everyone talking about themselves at the same time. Neither can we have everybody keeping things to themselves. Sometimes, listening to another person's sad experience can actually heal your own wounds and let you discover more about yourself. And if you will just stop looking at your life with a critical eye and spot all the good things in it, you might just realise what you are searching for all along is right before your eyes.

So why not today just take a step back, see the big picture, and start living for others.

You'll get what I mean.

(gotten from a sister in DI group. http://anti-cooties.blogspot.com/)

pioneering!

2007-06-29T01:37:00.000+08:00

Time really flies. In a blink of an eye, one week is going to end le. This week have really been an exciting week! I went down to springfield almost everyday to get to know more people with the springfield team! so fun haha... in fact on monday, i actually 'pon' econs lecture to come and join alfon.

We have done stupid and radical stuffs in these few day. haha. Monday, we (alfon in full school-uniform) went to appraoch some guys sitting along the basketball court and kana freak out by the guard; then thursday we (including me, alfon, andrew, mag, yanyu) decided to went into the school after waititng outside the gate for quite someitme.

Honestly, i was worried that the guard will chase us out. But when we went in, though he got see us, he didnt say anything. Then, we saw this bunch of guys, all from basketball school team, slacking at bb court. My first thought- "How to approach?! Let's look for other people la..." But suddenly, andrew suggested us to go approach them and even told me "bu yao pa!" I knew i had to show good example. So in the end i took the lead, deny my rights and appraoch them!!! 10+ of them sia!!! scary sia! But, end of the day, few of them were rather responsive and we could easily talk to them!! Praise god!!! =)

sometimes, it really puzzled me when i hear people telling me that "pioneering boring sia! Everyday do the same thing one!","or serving god is boring!"My only question: Have you really serve God enough to be able to come out with such conclusion! Because the God that i'm serving and i know is a VERY EXCITING God!!! so people who complain it's boring--- You haven really serve god hard enough!!!!

Anyway, i need to go sleep le. I'm starting to type words that i dun even understand hahaha. Nitez. =)

hmm.....

2007-06-25T02:28:00.000+08:00

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First Frontier photos!

2007-06-25T01:10:00.001+08:00

THis time round, there wasn't a lot of photos. but this are the few that i have =)

THE EAST-Dudes!!!! The machos of the east! We had a lot of fun together during the camp! heez...

My 2 SHEEPZ!!! (right: aloy. Left: brendon) They are super cool k? Simply because i'm their shepherd haha..

brendon. A life-transformation in camp! Mentioned in the previous post. Once hardened, now he's super excited to chiong for God man! (opps! sorrie for the ghost that apeared in the pics. Sorry for any inconvenience caused =( )

One of the toughest job as a shepherd: sheep bite!!!! They have such a adorable shepherd, but dun noe how to appreciate. Haiz... poor thing ar..

G.A.P performance. The still art team tried to exchange roles with the choir team! haha. =p

i was so blur in the morning that i dun even know that i was being camera-ed.

The IMPATIENT me, waiting for dennis chua to go back to dorm.'un-glam' pics. taken by parazzi.

introducing......DOC EVIL!!! THis pics is so sickening. Dun try to look at it for more than 10 sec, u cant stand it!

shane's MEMORABLE first night! hahaha... i believe it's very memorable isnt it, East D1? heez... =P

Hope KL with Y-hope!

Hope Hong Kong delegate, Sing. =)

Tis camp have really been a Fun and memorable one! Really waiting with great expectation for the Dec camp!!! MADNESS!!!! hahaha...

first frontier camp!

2007-06-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

seriously speaking, i really dun know how to start off this post. haha... Anyway, i really think that this is one of the most memorable camp in terms of people. My most memorable camp in terms of spiritual touch-down would be last year june camp, whereby my life was COMPLETELY open to God and Dennis.

This is the very first time i acted on stage in front of the whole church. I dun know how well i did, but i was really FUN!!!! I'm acted for the opening and closing ceremony as a watermelon seed, aka Blacky. The drama shows how ugly seeds can, in the end, grow into useful and tasty fruits! I'm also involved in the mega event, acted as a statue. heez. I'm considering joining drama. shhh..... haha....

During this camp i had fun with my guys too! Haha. Especially on the second night, when we offer a 'sacrifice' unto the Lord hahah!!! Indeed memorable! heez... And we definitaly had fun as a whole East D guys! It has really been a long time since the whole East D had so much fun! haha. Really brought back the memories when i was still in East d2! hahaha. Freaking long ago!
We did stupid things like singing birthday songs to Louis every meal and squeezed toothpaste while people are sleeping (i'm the victim!). Really had fun!

Of cos not just about the fun with had, but also, i saw life transformation! Wanan share about my sheep, Brendon. He left Yhope a year ago, but came back in the Feb this year. Though he came back, he was not serious about serving God etc. I was really lost at that time as i didnt know how to handle him. even this camp, he was rather reluctant to come. But thank god he made the correct choice to come down despite all the difficultites! and as he honour God, He honours him by transforming him in the camp! He responded to God, with a very sincere heart. I truly believe God will use him greatly in this CG 08!!!!!!!!!`GO BREND!

I had a very unique spiritual encounter with God on the second night man! IT was feakish!!!! I was worshipping, but i cant really get into it fully. So i was asking God "I want to get into the inner courts, and not just stand outside the veil!" Then suddenly, some prophesied, saying "god wana some of us here to come into the holies of holy........." and then i was thinking to myself, "God, are you talking to me?" And i started to post questions to Him. What was so freakish- God used 5 diff people to speak to me! The word that God gave them were the EXACT answer to ALL my questions!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW! Can never forget sia!!!! =0

2 things that i learnt and wanna apply:

1. It just takes ONE generation to destroy everything! When i was reminded of this, i was completely shocked. The pioneers of Hope Church have given their all to come this far, and i will never want to allow myself to destoy what they have built! I must build strong and biblical guys who will win the world!

2. Building a HA community! HOLY + ATTRACTIVE= HA! The hurch must build a community where people can come together to have fun, without having to wear their 'masks' on! And not just fun, but also holy! A community that obeys the bible, and encourages one another! Only with a strong community, then can CG 08 Be possible!!!

-photos will posted asap- =)

exam finally finished!!!!

2007-06-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!! Exam's finished le! Honestly speaking, i'm not very stressed by it. But i think it's really a good guage for me to know how poly exam is like, so that i can better prepare myself for future exam! heez... Though it's not very stressful, i really wanted to give my very best for it!

This week have been a really busy week. It's packed with rehearsals, studying and meeting people. At times it can really drained me out, and just sucks my life out of it. But, i immunised myself last week le. I knew that this was going to happen. That's why i made sure that my spiritual man is being fed everyday, thus spending daily QT with God. Still, it's physically tiring. =X

As camp is drawing closer, there is just this sense of excitment!!!! A very strong one indeed! i know God is going to speak big time into many people's lives, and blow them off!!!!! But there is also a sense of fear. I not scared about the camp or the people... but it's just that i know God is going to speak, yet i'm afraid that i'm not ready enough for Him to use. nvm... Going to spend sometime with God thinking through stuffs. Keep me in prayers =)

some past camp photos:

( mY dearest dearest East D1!!!)

(East Uls---my closet group of friends)

(those wanna-be. haha..)

(guys rocks!!!)

Guess where am i? heez.

(crazy team of people who imitate their crazy leaders hahahaha)

(One of my close frenz, dennis chua- rmb the secret hor.... heez.)

haha... winstar tey! The MOST irritating person i have met! His life mission: To irrtate poeple around him! hahaha... My closest friend=0) )

SEE YOU IN CAMP!!!! =)

it's just so exciting to serve this Jesus! heez.

2007-06-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

haha. i really really really thank God that i have Him in my life! Life with him is so meaningful and exciting! haha...

WED

BGR seminar!!! it's really since a long long time since we have workshops and seminars on this topic le. Some of you must be thinking "BORING!" But i believe with all my heart that it's so important for us, as christians, to know what does the bible talks about BGR and sexuality. The world is sending us different informations on such issues, and if the Church, the answer to all the world problem, is afraid to stand up and boldly talk about it, then it useless man! For those non-christians friends, i just wanna let you know that ' Christian cannot have BGR' is SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO WRONG!!!!!!!!! Because God did created Adam and Eve, and not adam and steve!
A few things that i learn/ reminded of:

1. When we give the best days of our lives to God (youth), God will honour us!!! One way-by giving us our perfect one when the time comes!!!

2. If you/ your partner do not know what's your/his/her life mission and vision, and you wanna get seriuos- COME ON!! wake up! IT"S NOT GOING TO WORK! Imagine next time you wanna back-pack travelling and she only wanna stay in spore then how? Guys, you will just ended up chasing after skirts after skirts!

3. If you can't even repect your parents and you wanna get serious with someone, you are not going to respect him/her either! Because when you are giving your partner the authority over your life. If you cant even respect the pple who have that authoritive role right now, how u going to respect your partner?

Maybe some of you asking "why think so much? I just wanna play play only one!" Then my question "why do you want to waste you and your partner time? There's so much more to life other than chasing after skirts man!"

THURS

Vesak Day! Let's go temple! haha. Just joking... heez. I attended my very first mission conference!!! the last time our church had a mission conference was ten years ago! haha.

Anyway, Definition of mission:
A body of persons sent to a foreign land by a religious organization, especially a Christian organization, to spread its faith or provide educational, medical, and other assistance.

There's so many that I have learnt! In fact, i attended this workshop 'How do i know whether i am ready for church planting?' IT's so cool! Teaches me how to prepare myself for future church planting! ya.... i know some of you may be thinking "SIAO AR?! So young think of what church planting?!" Well, that's my CONVICTION! Like it anot- Too bad! I'm really so convicted that the Church of God are called to be fruitful and we MUST MUST MUST obey the Graet Commission with all our heart, soul, mind and strength!!! Singapore is just too small man! =)

FRI

All the Est CLs came together and really took time out to pray. SO cool sia! haha. It was a day of assurance! God gave us words of phohesies, and most of them was really to assure the whole leadership of east that God IS WITH US!!! AMEN! Really refreshed and charged up!

GOD, i'm ready for your touch tomorrow! =)

sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

2007-05-30T00:28:00.000+08:00

aiyo... today really sianzzzzz.... morning we had APEL. It rather boring for me, cos i learn all these in church already, and i'm even teaching my guys to do all these le. ('m not saying this with a prideful spirit. dun misunderstood me) I dun mind if she could make it interesting.. But everytime she just read what's from the book. I mean if i go school from 11-12 just to hear someone narrating the book to me, i rather read it myself!!! =(

After Apel was Communication Skills. It should be the class that i most look forward to, but.... we are learning about report writing! It's like the secondary school stuffs. haiz... and to make matter worse, we can only get back our results for last week test only when school reopens! ARRHHHH!!!!!

Finally, we have come to the-end-of-the-day lecture!!! CSA lecture! Seriously, i dun dislike the subject at all. BUt today was revision lecture and i didnt bring any notes, plus i was super tired............ YUP! first time i slept 70% throughout the class~ haiz.... ( but i recorded down the whole lecture! heez. can listen while travelling.... I"M NOT STUPID K?! hahahahaha...)

Anyway, my stupid sheep is GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sob..sob...sob...... no one to 'scold' and disturb le...... bye sheep........

before i go.... check out this blog haha... http://www.disgustingpeople.blogspot.com/

sorry, i'm back

2007-05-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

hahaha. now as look back, then i realised that it has been around 5 days since i last posted. It will be rather lame if i were to describe what i did for the past few days. So just want to take down some blessings and speacial incidents.

1. On thursday, it was our very FIRST time we had our cg in andrew's house!!! haha. It was due to some unpredictable happenings in RC. :p I personlly feel that it was good as that was a change of environment, which is something new and fresh for us! I mean we have it in Rc for sooooooooooo longggggggggggg already man! haha. Great time of fellowship and worship. Thanks guys for making it possible!!! =)

2. Friday was a memorable day man. Ended school at 11. But from 11am-5pm, i didnt really spend my time fruitfully...

11-1: i went to library to read newspaper and went shopping with jueting and amanda

1-130: pass winstar something (super pissed!!!!)

130-3: listen to sermon on mp3 till i fell asleep in tp library hahaha...

3-5: supposed to meet ben @ 3pm. BUT, he sleep like a pig!!!!! Ended up i was alone for 2 hours. But of course, i made full use of it! I took some time to just spend some really really quality time with my BESTESTESTEST friend-Jesus =)

but i learn smoething--- Often, we just got to slow down with God! Many times, we are too fast!!! So fast that the Holy Spirit cant even catch up with us hehez... When we slow down and take time to listen to our environment and God. You will hear things that you dun normally hear daily! Try it man! =)

3. On friday, some of us went to clarke quay to celebrate gwen's birthday! haha... it's so exciting cos it's my very first time to clarke quay!!! yeah! wow, the night life there is active and... there's a lot of ang mohs!!!! haha... Had fun eating cakes at TCC and sharing haha! Though many of us were damn tired, we really value the friendship, and that's y no one complained about "aiya, faster can? Very tired leh." or any such comments.

*Real friendship is really all about commitment.*

Reactivity Series

2007-05-21T23:44:00.001+08:00

Please Stop Calling Me A Zebra I Love Happy Cat

Remember what is this? Haha. It's pottasium, sodium, calcium, magnesium, aluminium, zinc, lead, hydrogen and copper . It's the reactivity series that we learnt in chemistry!

I was pouring out to someone close to me, telling him how i feel about certain thing, and how i responded to certain situations that happened throughout the weeks that he's not in spore.

Honestly, i miss him! haha. Cos he is really someone that i know i can go to when i need a listening ear, and can give me advices aptly.

ANYWAY.... after i 'vomit' all out to him, i feel really better. MUCH better. He asked me some questions, and evaluate with me some of my actions. So as i thought through, i cant stand it, but to really thought to myself "i still have got SoOOOOO much to learn man...". And he said this sentence that really struck me- " somtimes we are so discontended with things, that out of love, we get frustrated with things and people around us, causing us to react too fast!"

"How true man," i thought to myself as all the memories sweeped through my mind. i realised i have been easily frustrated with things and especially poeple around me. That causes me to react in ways that wasnt very pleasant =( . Wel.......l I really need to take some time to fix myself back man. =)

BTW..........................

That's dennis! -my 'loving' shepherd? hmmm....... fuahahaha.....=)

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POSER!!!!!!!!! hahahaha. look alike! dun they? heez. =)

falling down, and picking up.

2007-05-19T00:48:00.001+08:00

i actually wanted to blog A LOT more. But, after talking to diff people and waching some shows, i realised it was too late. hahaha...

Anyway, i really respect people who falls down, and yet have the courage and the strength to pick themselves up. Anyone and everyone falls, but very few would actually pick themselves up and continue to walk! Many would rather fall, and just sit there till they rot!

Soemtimes people are so afraid of walking with a limp. They feel that since they cant walk properly, they rather not walk at all, fearing poeple around them may see them as handicapped, and imperfect people. However, my question is that which successful man in history have never fall, and continue walking with a limp? NO ONE. Look at King David, who was being hunted, thus, being forced into desperation and despair, yet still called by God as 'a man after my own heart'! Even Beethoven, the greatest musician ever lived, had hearing problems, but still walked with a limp. As a result, classical music had a hugh leap!

Such man are not perfect; man that dun fall and make mistakes. However, they are man who walked with a limp!

So i you are reading this, and you have fallen, dun be afraid to pick yourself up! It's not about what others see you, but who you really are! If you have pick youself up, then great! i saluate you! =)

YES!!!!! andrew can come camp!!!! =)

2007-05-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

For this whole week, i have been fasting for my guys to come for this june's camp. For my non-christian friends, we as christian also do fast. But rather different from the Muslim's fast, whereby we are only allow to drink. We have different kinds of fast like fasting from certain habits/meals/ food, and the time period can varies. Most importantly, we must have an objective when we fast. In my case, it's for the guys in my group to come for june camp! Yup.

So i have been praying really hard for them. Some of them do not have enough money, while some are due to parental objections. And my focus this week is actually to make sure i dun just PRAY, and not do anything! So i decided to go and talk to those whose parents dun allow them to come. One of them is andrew.

Honestly, I'M SO NERVOUS!!!! hahaha... So i have been planned out. 1st, talk to andrew to warm myself up; 2nd, pray with him; 3rd, ask the parent out. However, upon reaching his house, i knew my plan HAVE got to change! When i stepped in, and haven even spoke a word, he ran and shouted, "Mummy, yi qin come liao!!!" I was like "WAITTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!! I"M NOT READY!!!!!!!!!!!!!" The next moment, i saw her mum out from her room!!!!! Wah... thanks man!!! =/

So i sat down with andrew and his mum. I just wan to know why she dun allow him to come, thus i asked her. Then i explained to her what we do there; reason for the price; what does our church do etc. After my explanation, she asked andrew " HOw? U want to go is it?" Of course, andrew said "YES!!!" And then she just passed me the money and filled in the consent form!!!!!!!!!!!! WAH!!!! In the end, both andrew and his sister, antena, can come down!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe! Praise God!!!! =)

anyway, this is the link for our camp!!!--- firstfrontiercamp.blogspot.com

The truth is that, many parents WANT to know what exactly is their child doing in this place called 'church'. And the reason why they dun want to come church is becuase they lack that assurance. So, follow-uppers and cls, tips for u all: go your pple house! Trust me- the parents would blast you with many questions! Simply just assure them! =) I'm still expecting God to make even more pple to be able to come!! if u are too, let's continue praying and expect!!!!

Anyway, let me tell u something k?.... Dun laugh k?...... I"M IN DANCE!!!!!!! hehehehe.... last sat i went for tp dance audition with denise. so today the result just same out and we are both in!!! haha. My friends really make me SUPER pai seh!!! Me, melvin, xiyang and mervin were at the noticeboard checking the namelist. So when i told them that i saw my name, they exclaimed in a not-very-soft volume, "WOW, YI QIN IN DANCE SIA!!! WAH!!! NEXT TIME WILL GO ON STAGE LEH!" And there were other pple looking at the board too! they were like looking at me like some weirdo! WAH.. 'thanks' guys.... =/

a typical tues =)

2007-05-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

Before i go into the main topic, yesterday star came to overnight at my house and we watch this jap drama ' One litre of tears'. A nice and heart warming show. Do expect lots of tearings haha.

Based on a true story, One Litre of Tears is about the life story Kitou Aya (1962-1988) a girl who had an incurable disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease (also known as SCA type 2; spinocerebellar ataxia type 2)at a young age of 15. Although the girl in the drama - Ikeuchi Aya, lived in the 21st century, her character was based on Kitou Aya's life, how she struggled and fought her disease and how she wrote her deepest thoughts until the last day she could hold a pen. Before she died, her writings were published including the poems she wrote while she is staying in a school for the disabled. This gave new hopes to people who suffers the same disease as she did and soon Aya received letters of appreciation and thanks from those people. At the age of 25, she succumbed herself into a sleep where she could no longer feel any pain.
Ichi Rittoru no Namida is a heart-warming drama that will make people happy for the simple fact that they are alive, and will give hope to those who suffers from diseases and will make them think positive about living instead of giving up easily.
I give this drama two-thumbs up!

Anyway, it's another typical day in school. when for APEL class and we did this Phishy Personality Test (similar to DISC test). There's the swordtail ( powerful and decisive), guppies (talkative and cheerful), angelfish ( peace and submissive), and the goldfish ( cautious and detailed). So guess which am i? haha. Should be rather obvious. hehez=) My class have total of 9/25 of guppies- esp the GALS!!! haha.

( left to right: vanessa, amanda, jue ting)

they are just the 3 out of the rest! hehez. O YA! one of then is a 'bimbo' can guess? haha. i cant say..... or.............................................. i'll be dead =)

From them, i discovered this truth concerning life-and-death- Dun be hit be a volleyball girl!!! I"M SERIOUS!

So after the APEL, we went for Communication Skills class. Our teacher so freaking COOL lor! VERY fun one haha. She's more like a nanny to us heez.

After this class, many of us 'dragged' ourselves to the CSA (computer skills and application) class. Many dislike this subject, especially the lecture!!! It's super DRY!!!! I dun understand why the teacher dun try to make the lesson fun? haiz. At least makes us have the interest la?! And this amanda is soooooo weird haha! she keep laughing at NOTHING!!!! YES! NOTHING! haha. One of the freakiest thing that she do- look at me and then suddenly laugh. So 'wat de'! I mean... looking at a HUNK and laugh is so abnormal isn't it? =) And she smells pple's jacket! haha. but she's really a nice gal la. Rather caring and most importantly........ ENTERTAINING!!!!! hahahaha..... YUP!

Anyway, pls take note- DO NOT go A* coffee shop at Big bookshop area to eat the 1/2 bbq chicken rice! Even though it seems to be a franchise of the famous western food around 800++, it's not nice! The meat is hard, the rice is hard and it's not the 'yellow rice'! Well, try at ur own risk! haha. I met benjamin and then went hm hehez.

End of my day! =)

"i KNOW what to do, but i just dun feel like doing it..."

2007-05-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

This phrase have been in my mind since friday. It's just stuck in there. 2 people in my life have been telling me that. Well, the truth is that most of the people KNOW what's right and what's wrong. They know what to do and what not to do as well. People know that smoking is bad; playing too long of online games is not advisable, yet they stilll do it anyway. So many know, but so little do!

Many times, the reason being- lack of motivation. Very often, people around us keep telling us what we should do, what steps to take, what is right. And, very often, it's not as if we do not know about it. In fact, we may already heard of it so many times before. I believe that whenever we want to do something that we know we shouldn't, our conscience will knock against out hearts, stopping us to take a further step down the slope. And we do want to response to it too. But at that point of time, we just feel so hard to just take the step back and say "no"! It's the same as going down a slope is always easy, whereas going up it seems so hard, and we tell oursekves that we can't do it.

What we truly need is not someone to come up to us and tell us " hey, it's wrong", or " o my, it's so hard!" Because it's just stating the obvious fact! All we need, often, is simply someone to just give us a pat on the back, and say "Go man! You can do it!", or " I know you can!" Such simple words, yet giving us the incredible strength to conquer the unconquerable!

Are you waiting for someone to gives you that pat on you back? If you are, think about it. Maybe, someone out here could be just waiting for you to give them that pat too! Remember......

Take a break, give a pat! =)

sense of assurance

2007-05-13T01:20:00.002+08:00

these few days haven been posting because i was really tired, and had to do a lot of stuffs once i get online eg. check emails, reply emails, some other admin stuffs.

anyway, these few days, many things happened. Mainly people's problem. it makes me really think through things, and evaluate on myself. Today, we had our parents day service and a normal service before that. Attandence was bad. Real bad. 7 for service. the last time i see it should be... last year?

at first, at the sight of the numbers of total guys, I was rather sianz. but during praise, i seriuosly want to give god my very best praise, despite my emotions and circumstances! But when it comes to worship, i came before God with all my emotions, feelings, and, tears. That was the time i know i can feel free to express my feelings to someone who will fully understands me. That the time that i know that i can lay down all my burdens, and worries. That freedom is simply indescribedable! I had a great time hearing from God.

the truth is that, i'm really upset. I'm upset about what's happening to the group, my sheeps, and the people. why are they not growing as much as they should? Why isnt the group growing? Why isnt there any people that i can rise up as a CL? All these hit me real hard. It definately hurts. yet, i have this sense of assurance of God'd presence in my life, and that he is there! He's watching every single person in the group, and all these that are happening is in his plan!

A few nights before, i was praying to God that he will grow my sheeps and the group. Wow. God is very efficient isnt it? haha. I know when all these problem came up because..... WE ARE GROWING!!! yeaH! In fact, if God dun give us problems, then i'm worried. That's why i am still holding on to God's promises! I dun care how things may become, and i've decided, unless His will is done, i will NOT give up!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

SAVE RC!!!!!

2007-05-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

Rc is seriuosly in debt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The truth is that, i have never really felt so burdened for the rc giving so far. *opps* In the past, when we talk about rc is in debt, i'm like "O no....." That's all. Not much actions being made; rather indifferent. But after discussing with maurise on how to save rc, my heart felt really really burdened. $1350..... if i'm not burdened, then that's madness! That's a freaking lotssssssssssssssssss of money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

" God, please help us! we are really in debt! Lord, we know that 'in debt' should not be in our dictionary. But we are in it now! You see our hearts desire; hear our prayer! This sat as we meet and challenge the whole district, Lord, let you Spirit move in the hearts of all the people, and that you would give them that heart burden that you have given to me! All we can do is to challenge, but what You can do is limitless! Do Your work in us God. You promise us that we will be the head and not the tail. Bless us as we learn to give despite our financial difficulties! Amen."

Anyway, i was teaching aloy when we came across this statement.

" Our primary identity is a servant," i said.

" Hmm, but i thought our primary identity is Child of God?" aloy asked, giving me the 'question-mark' look.

Hmm, i took me a while to answer that question. hahaz. what do you think? Is our primary identity a COG or a servant? The answer is- BOTH!

Being a COG simply means to be a servant, and being a servant mean to be a COG too. Because it carries the same meaning, biblically. An example would be a maid. A maid's role is to serve the household. But if the maid do not serve, she is not a maid. Though theoretically, she is a maid, in actual fact she's not a maid anymore. ( sounds chim..... hahaz) Likewise, a COG who do not serve, is not a COG practically, even though she may have received salvation.

So are u, theorectically or practically, a Child of God?

TABOO!!!!!

2007-05-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

i have a new taboo- drinking MILK in the morning!!!! ARRH! Today i had some bread and a cup of milk for breakfast, and set off to school. I'm suppose to meet Xiyang for breakast, but my mum have prepared it even before i woke up haha. So as i was watching Xiyang eating his breakfast at business park, i can feel my tummy battling within. Well, in the end, i had a 'fierce battle' in the toilet man! hahaha...

my list of taboo:
1. mint sweets- gives me bad breath.
2. onion/ ginger/ garlic- simply turn my stomach.
3. dun make me feel physically dirty. ( winstar can best irritate me in this =/ )
4. tickling me in public places- results in agressive reaction
5. play guitar when i'm speaking- just distracting
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anyway, microeconomics is killing me! I dun really understand these few new concepts. The lecture is rather monotone, making me keep 'knocking-out' hahaz. But at least she's patient enough to explain. But my tutor...... hmm..... many have briefed me on him....... and i really dun have high hopes.... heee....... just pray that God can open my eyes and my mind! jia you!!! =)

hardworking de yi qin

2007-05-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last day of registration for Word for Life ( WFL). I saw the hobbies of humans- procrastination

Wfl was announced weeks ago, but most of the people flocked to the info counter to pay only till yesterday. It was MADNESS! There was so many people. I overheard a guy who commented " WAH... Like market sia!" haha. Yes. it was very crowded and noisy. Even edwin and ee voon have to become out 'part-time' workers! Heez. In the end, we OT (over-time) for one hour plus. It's freaking tiring!

When i reached S11, i was like a walking zombie. I still need to accompany dennis to go city hall to collect something from his friend, and then have a meeting. wah..........

but u know something? hehez.... i went to bed only after 4! I'm a night-person, and.......... television programmes are just simply soooooo attractive isnt it? haha.

anyway, i just found this pics. It should 3 years ago, when i went to a ostrich farm with a CC one day tour to Malaysia. It's a REAL one alright?!

o ya. i gtg. I forgot that i have Comm Skills homework. chiaoz! =)

Are you effective, or are you efficient?

2007-05-05T01:54:00.000+08:00

" 10 rounds," i told myself as i breathed in deeply, and dived right through the water.

3 rounds have passed. 7 more to go. However, by then, i was getting tired as i had exhausted my energy in that short 3 rounds. Suddenly, this question popped up- Do I want to finish the race effectively, or efficiently?

Society nowadays, especially in Singapore, demands for things to be done efficiently. 'Do it fast, do it well'- a slogon for singaporeans isn't it? when we visit fastfood restraunts, we expect the service to be fast. And what if our expectations are not met? well, simply pissed off! many of us should still be able to remember the MacDonald's '1-minute rule'. If our food are not delivered to us within that 1 minute, we will get a free pinapple pie. That's just one of the many examples that exemplify out desire for efficiency!

But when it comes to building the Kingdom of God, which is our priority, right now? Personally, I was once again reminded of running the race effectively instead of efficiently. soemtimes i'm just too focus too much on " do it fast, do it well'! I want my people and the group to grow fast, meeting more people in a week etc, that i forgot about building it right, which is the key! it's no use accomplishing so many stuffs quickly, yet none is done WELL! And if i want to build a cornerstone for the fututre generations to build on, i've got to build it RIGHT! I need to be effective more than efficient! But of course, both should, and MUST go hand-in-hand so as to advance the Kingdom of God!

What about you? Are you running so fast that you are already wearing out and find it so hard to contiune moving on? Or are you running very steadily, so much that you are way behind the rest? Answer yourself with pure honesty, and lets' grow together! =)

finally back!!!!.... again?

2007-05-05T01:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! I'm finally back! haha. But you know what? It's the 'i-dun-know-many' times i say this exact same phrase already! haha.

I really want to maintain this blog well. This will be a place whereby i can vent my emotions, share about my life ( it's a comedy k? heez...), and my recent learnings. So, watch out people! Yi Qin's coming your way!!!!!!!!!! FUAHAHAHA.......=)

2 Chron 25-27

2007-01-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

just wanna share about what God have spoken to me during today QT.

1. Do not let age to be a stumbling block in serving God!
Uzziah was only 16 years old when he became the king over the whole Judah. If i were him, i would have freaked out! But he was the one who made history! The truth is that he have got no experience, and most prob, know nuts about leading a country! So what's the secret to the his success?....
AN: 2 chron26:5 " ...As long as he sought the Lord, God gave him success."
Madness man! i wanna believe that the most unskillful person who is willing to seek the Lord for success, God will give it to him man! =)

2.There is just NO short-cut to meet God!
THis same guy, Uzziah, who after having many success, became prideful he thought that he can have short-cut to meeting God. He entered the temple and burnt the sacrifices himself, which is not right in the eyes of God! No matter what am i serving in, i want to make sure, i will not think that i'm NEVER too good to seek God! Ultimately, i'm a COG! =)

=)

2006-05-22T00:28:00.000+08:00

Oh well, i really do not know what title suits my post today. One fine sunday morning? A day with God? Aiyo! I do noot wish to waste my brain cells on these kind of stupid thinking.

Anyway, today i dreamt of a very stupid dream. Dun ask how stupid it is, cos...i also dun noe how to tell u. But the main few 'actors and actress' are derrick, me, few CCHS boys which i nv see before, my grandma, my aunt, and... my dad! haha... too lazy to tell type out the whole story. Heehee...

Today early in the morning we are SUPPOSED to have our meeting 8 at RC. But, ended up, postponed to later evening. So i went back home to 'do business' and then went to ULC, follwed by RC meeting. i thinking i really talk a lot and ask a lot during the meeting. Well, i'm really very excited about the RC and really feel compassionate for it!!!! Everytime i go there, i never fail to go and check around that the RC is in good condition! haha.. rather proud of this! =)

In the evening, we had our meeing. Talk and discuss about a lot of stuffs. If my guys happen to see this blog, please do remember to look at the positive side of *****, and not looking on the negative side of him. If you dun see him grow, he WILL not grow! And also, do to him what you want others to do to you! even thought we necer kill him or whatsoever, we ought to evaluate how we treat him man!... And i'm really excited about the 'Bring It On'!! haha... we are going to do some dumb things man! Watch out pple out there!!! WE WILL WIN!!! heez.... gts( going to sleep liao)... nitez...

ONE MORE WEEKS!!!!!!!!!! =)

wat a holiday! haha...

2006-05-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

WOAH!!! i'm really amazed by my own schedule during the holidays. There are a lot of activities lined up. I know that this year is a very crucial year and i should be focusing solely on my studies. teachers are also physco-ing me. However, like what i told my sheep today from "Matthew 6:33- Seek His kingdom firest and the reast will be given to you." i really cling onto this promise and i will try my best and managed both my studies and my ministries!! Those who really wanna ask me what help can u offer, i believe that the best gift you can offer is a word of prayer! i really afraid that i will be barren due to the busyness. Thus, i really pray that i will be rooted to His word and give me s strong heart man!

just some sneak preview of my holidays:
1) Rc opening- 2 june
2) Encounter Camp- 7 to 10 june
3) mission Trip- 15 to 20 june
:i will be going to some villages or slum areas in Thailand to help to shift farms, build houses, and also share the love of God to the villagers there and many many many more!
AND...... ............. ........
MANY MANY MORE!!!!
i'm really so excited about this holiday! Hope that you will enjoy yours too! =)

my results..

2006-05-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

after mugging for so long... these are the result i've gotten...

MT: 70.5 [ A1 ]

Chem: 50 [ C6 ]

Phy: 47 [ D7 ]

SS: 38/50[ A1 ]
Geo: 30/50[ B4 ]
total: 68 [ B3 ]

EM: 67 [ B3 ]

AM: 43 [ E8 ]

EL: ~

haiz... rather discouraged... i realli got work hard leh.... but then.. ended up to be like that...
aiyo!!! arrh.... nvm... as if it is O level! ok one lar... i beliieve i can ultimately hit that 15!!!!! yeah man!

today really feel so bad. There is this gal in my class. so i SO SO SO SO SO....... haiz.... since last week onwards, whenever there is time for us to acquire our teacher, she 'comfirm bao guarantee chop stamp' will be there one leh! And sometimes we really have got questions to ask teacher, and she will always be there to lengthen the whole queue. That is so frustrating! Today, we were going through one of the paper and she keep going up the teacher for God knows why, when she got 'A' already! arrh...

feeling so bad... =(

i learnt it thru the hard way!!! arrh....

2006-05-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

lesson learnt: think before you speak!

today, i really felt like a stupid idiot, stupid dumbo, idiot freak, dumbo dumb dumb, brainless fool!!!!!!!! ARRH!!!

A actually told me something bout B, and A told me not to say anything. And today i was SO DUMB...and went to ask B.... ended up... i think i got A into trouble... well.... i realli felt so idiot!!! if YOU are looking into this place... i'm sorrie again... haiz...

...stupid fool!!!

2006-05-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

after about one weeks...i finally found out that i can blog!!! arhh.....

an interesting mothers' day!

2006-05-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

haha.... yesterday wa a very interesting mother day... both for mi and my mum! we went on stage to testify about how God changed my life... cool rite? haha.... my mum is so friendly that she can practically talk to anyone! from shirley... to ShuZhen... to East D.. to even East C!!! haha... interesting rite? many pple admire me for having such a great mum... i myself realli hank God too!!! for giving mi such a supportive and patient mum.... even thou at times she faces problems in her work or being discouraged... she would not vent her anger on us... she is also very supportive... like she will help mi pay for mycamp fee... and his coming mission trip... she also helping mi to pay for majority! so good rite... haha... i gg... pos more nex time! =)... btw... later LAST PAPER LIAO LEH!!!! haha...

FINALLY!!!!! hahah...

2006-05-11T16:53:00.000+08:00

after mugging for SO MANY WEEKS... today i can finally rest!!! no needa go to west cc mac liao loh... heehee...
i started my revision actually eralier than my friends... but seems like the same leh.. haha... that's not the point.. anyway... for this time round.. i really think that i am really hardworking like nv before!I'M SERIOUS!... really.... and i really think that it pays off... even thou i noe that i cannot get 7 A1 or all A1... but i know that i did my best... and most impt... i really exp Him!
before the intensive week start... i was telling God..." PLS PLS PLS take care of the grp! as i do my best... u will continue to lead teh grp... and things will get better.." so now... as i look back... God reallly took good care of the grp... even thou i didn't do much... haha... it's his pple after all..
last sat... it was realy different man! we had a mid-night P&W!!!! SO COOL right?!! nv try before... so i really wanna thank Nicholas for taking the initaitive to suggest and plan everything else... even thou i didn't realli wan it.. at first... but after seeing his conviction.. well.. everything went well!!! and i used taht time to talk to one of my sheep... at nite... i can feel his heart changed... his attitude changed... so cool!!! that nite i was not tired at all!!! haha... i believe that it's be cos i really enjoy talking to pple!!! yeah man!!
testimony: My geo paper... i have 3 chapters... but choose one... i somehow didn't see tourism... which is the shotest one... but i actuuly choose the longest and most things to memorise.. the next few days... my frinds keep 'pshyco-ing' me and i was tempted to changed... but God stop me... so when the paper came out... haha... tourism have got 2 full pages long of qusetion... while development... turn out to be only 3 short qusetions... and was easier... much more easier!!! haha... God bless man!!
i also realised thah... i can't really stand pple who SAY they wanna study... but end up... PLAYING!!! arrh... i just cant stand it... i'm sorrie if i hurt some of u whom i scolded.. cos i think thath's time for everything.. so studying time shld study... slack a ehile can la... but not like 15 minutes.... or evn more... it's just so unfruitfu!!!!
no matter wat... i believe God will help mi to get L1R5 15!!! if i get it... those ard me reward mi k??? haha... God Bless ya all...=0

SOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!

2006-05-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

haha.... i am really excited!!!! i'm excited bout wat i can do abt the grp... excited abt wat's in the June... excited abt... EVERYTHING!!!! haha... in really wanna do something diff... rather doing all the normal mundane stuffs... i really wanna do something diff!! ( but not as extreme as alvin haha..) and there's also certain areas in the grp that i really wanna see a cahnge...have yet to discuss with dan... but... I"M REALLY EXCITED!!! hope u guys are on board wif mi!!!!!!!! =)

wah lao...=(

2006-05-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

todae... during the geo remedial... teacher say i did not hand in the worksheet... and thus my CA1 will get zero if i still nv hand up by 5pm... i actually thought that i hand in already... so i thought that it must be at home... so i didn't worry much as i looked at some of my friends who haven hand in chionging to finish it... so i still very slack... went to buy some stuffs with aloy... and then went hm to take the worksheet and go back school retuurn to Mrs Lu..
so when i reach hm... it was like 4.30 already... so i was a little worry liao.. so i went to search for the worksheet.. but... shit!... i cant find it!!!! ARRRH!!!! at that time.. i didnt noe wat to do... however the strange things is that.. I FETL VERY PEACEFUL! woah... i thought i was supposed to feel anxious... but NO!
i really wanna trust God! i believe that the worksheet must be with her.... or thru some 'weird' way... i can find it! God... i'm waiting!!!

how sweet is your fruit??? *_#

2006-05-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

the truth is that every child of God DO have the fruit of the Spirit! however the question is... "How sweet is yours?" when we receive God into our life... we all have the friut in us already... but it's just that how sweet is it? the friut can only gives out its aroma and fragrance when God cuts us with his Love thru His pruning and testing... yes!.. God's pruning are tough... are hard... but only thru all these... then can our thru fragrance be produced...however... there's many pple who only wanna God to be their 'blesser'... and not their 'trainer'! they does wanna God to prune them... then let me ask u... " how do u want your 'Fruit' to gives out its aroma?" these pple's fruit will just rot there and gives out pungent smell... not just harming himself... but the pple ard this person...
that is why pple often say to see how mature a person is in Christ... just look at his 'Fruit'... his life... it shows a thousand word! so how? do u wanna your Friut to rot... or to gives out its great fragrance?... choice is urs! =)

WOAH!!! =-)

2006-04-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

Today, i am so tired! i didn't got to sleep. only at mac, i slept for ard half an hour and on the bus lor... i reach hm ard 7 plus, and i have to bath and get ready to go to rc for ULM. But the ULM is really very refreshing and inspiring!
we had jas, shar and bing back with us from their trip to Thai Camp. so we have them to share with us about their exp there. there is a few things that tey share which really Struck

1)there is this pastor of her village, ard 27 people. u know how old is her??? she's 48! and u noe how old is she spiritually??? 4 yrs old only! and here she is a pastor. their living conditiions is so bad!... they slp with flies ... insects.. shit... etc... and they life is very simple! but they faith and hunger is incredible. there is no bible there and the omly way the pple can hear bout the Word is when the pastor or leaders come to preach. And whenever pastor come down, they always wanted more from them! THEY ARE SO HUNGRY FOR THE WORD!!! i really amazed by their life which are fully given to God! the weather that is VERY HOT... and that from one village to another is VERY far... however, their follow-up is not doine once a week leh... it's EVERY TUES, WED, FRI and SAT!!! wow! it's so hard. And the pastor still told jas that she thinks that she is already doing very little as compared to the pple outside! i have got to saluate them man! as i was listening to them sharing abt her, i jus cant stop thinking to myself... "wat have i been doing man?" ..."wat are the pple HERE doing man?" pple there are so hungry abt thhe Word and their thirst the Word like mad, but here we are... sermon still sleeping... playing... teaching still not paying attention! pple just didn't realise how forunate they are?!.... and one more thing is their growth... she grew from 1 to 5.., then to 12! ... but she told God "it's enough"... so for 3 yeras, there was no growth... until God spoke to her man... so in one of the X'mas service, they brought down... 100 pple!!!!!!!!!!! onlt 27... but brought 100!!! wat bout the EAst??? 120 pple... shld bring at least 300 pple!!!!! wow!!!!!! iu'm so amazed!!!
in fact they still share a lot... but it's too much for mi to post it up... and the conviction cant be read... so can ask them or evn mi more... k?

STUDY... STUDY... STUDY... STUDY!!!!

2006-04-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

woah.. it's SAT! which means that we will needa chiong liao loh!! two weeks ago, we set as every sat we will go down to study overnite at west CC mac. normally, there would be the East C sisters And East D1 brothers there... bascially the Far East pple! it reallt very fun to study overnite together with such a big grp.. abt 10 plus pple. Whenevr we have any prob, we will go ard to seek help from another. yesterday, all of us REALLY study leh! when you see everyone study, even those who are not focus will also join along one.

...dirty mi...

2006-04-27T20:28:00.000+08:00

oh man... i really feel so sinful! i just cant stop... ... AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! FORGIVE MI GOD!!! =X

greater bonds=greater dynamics= GREADTER GROWTH!!!

2006-04-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

today... we had our first cg in our new RC! yeah! so excited! haha... but i am really so guilty...=(
... i accidently close the lock that i am not supossed to close and those who are inside are locked inside.. while those outside are unable to come in too... i was already so guilty... and yet pple are still there saying... "yi qin! y u like that?!"... wau liao sia... makes mi even more sianz...
thank god Simon... one of the tenants... had the keys with him.. so some of the guys went to interchange and take from him... thank GOD!!!! haha...
after that... we had our... CG!!! it was very fun! pple participated and pple open up and can see that they realli enjoyed themselves!=)
i realli see how God seperated the both groups and then He made us 'merger' again... there is really a greater synergic and a greater dynamic within thegrp and esp the DMM! i really sense the whole DMM's attitude and spirit is changed.. and that pple are excited for God! i am really convicted that if this grp is to continue... or even grow even more bonded... God will definately bless our cg!!! yes man!!! =)

talking to pple are so fun! haha..

2006-04-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

i just now talk to one of my guys...and i feel so relaxed after that...i saw this bro looked frustrated for this few weeks but i didnt have the time to go and talk to him... so just not i got to talk to him over msn... so he opened up and share to mi bout how he felt for this few days and weeks... when i see that he felt much better.. i too felt much better..
i really agree that we as leaders of the spiritual realm realli have to stay close with God in order to fight this spiritual battle haha... we can only lead the grp with Him leading us... Amen?! haha...
Also.. i really see the imptance of having someone to account to... someone who can allow you to 'vomit' on him... someone to be there for u.. and someone to be truthful to u! ..especially in this walk with God! really impt man! ...or u will just burst out! thank God for star.. rick.. dan... bing.. for allowing mi to vomit unto u guys! =)

trust in Your plans...

2006-04-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

wah... this year is really a hard year... i am a ULa cum a Cl.. which mean i needa take the role of a UL and Cl.. thus... it's rather hard..not only have to do a lot of planning... talking to pple.. i still needa carry out the plans... have a touch downt o very single one of my pple.. and i am having O level this year..
sometimes i realli felt that i have no time and i am incapable of doing all these that He had called to to do.. but realli wanna thank God! coz He ahve showed me again and agian that as long as i do my very best... He will honour mi!... be it my studies.. or my grp...
thou that are times i felt like give up... but i noe my life is secure in His plan! sometimes when i look at my freinds and the pple around mi... i can't help but to say that i realli thank God to have Gos!... pple out there depends on their own strength... and when things happens.. they give up and loses hope.. and have no one to turn to but friends.. who might fail you... but i noe that my plans are secure in His hands.. and that watever circumstanes i may fece... His plan for mi will Always be the BEST and will NEVER change!
To all O's brother and sister: Trust in His plan and serve Him with all your heart! cos when we honour Him... He will honour us!!! =)

haiz... haiz...

2006-04-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

todae... i had a arguement with someone... haiz.... realli dun noe wat to do... i realli didnt meant to do it one... and i realli didnt expect her to say anything... but... things are just so unpredictable... realli sorrie bout it... i would be more sensitive... responsible in wateva i do and i really dun wanna see thid relationship get sour becoz of this... he's one of closer ---... i wanna draw closer to him to noe him better... he have got SO MUCH potential! man... i hope that he will under it... and i realli hope that God will touch his heart and s[[eak to him...
TO: ---
if u were to see this... wat i have got to say is sorrie and i am not wat u thought i was... i thouhgt of how u would feel too... realli hope that we will not drift apart becoz of this... i still have hot so much that i wanna impart to u! study hard...=(

...resurrection...

2006-04-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

haha...this blog has now finally RESURRECTED!!! yeah! this will be a place.. for mi to post up my blessings... my thoughts and some things that has happened to my life... haha... =)

stress!!!

2006-02-05T01:37:00.000+08:00

In June last year, 10-year-old Lysher Loh died after jumping from a block of flats in Bedok Reservoir Road where she lived. Sad to say, but this is not the only case.
There have been more and more cases of primary school children committing suicide these few years. It is really shocking to the society about how students, especially in Singapore, are stressed up to the point that they have to end their lives. Although Singapore's education system is one of the best in the world, it is one of the most stressful education system too. It is stressful in a way that students often compete with one another, and many a time, in a harmful way.
The four main sources of stress for Singapore students include coping with the amount of schoolwork, time management, coping with expectations and societal values.
On the average, a secondary school student in Singapore has to take seven academic subjects. Assuming that the teachers give every student one assignment per subject, per day; and assuming that the student only has 7 hours per day to finish all these assignments. That is an overwhelming load of homework for students. Is it reasonable then, to punish students who are slow learners and slow do-ers who always cannot finish their homework? By doing so, the teachers are mainly adding to the already high level of stress students face.
Students nowadays find that they are increasingly unable to have time, find time and make time for anything other than schoolwork and school responsibilities. A simple and informal survey done among students revealed that many complained of schoolwork negatively affecting their time for friends, family, leisure and even pursuit of personal goals. For those who said they were still devoting the same amount of time to other areas of their lives recognised however, that schoolwork was affecting their level of mental and physical energy used to handle these areas. This contributes to stress that students face, as they battle with the increasing fatigue and frustration of incapability to manage their time well.
Students face pressure from meeting expectations as well; expectation from their parents, from friends, from tutors, and their expectation of own performance. Parents expect their children, their pride and joy, to really be their PRIDE and JOY. They expect their children to do well in school for myriad reasons but there is no uncertainty in that Singaporean parents expect much from their children academically. Expectations from friends are commonly termed peer pressure, a powerful motivator and a high stress factor in adolescents’ lives. Expectations from teachers are equally stressful. However, the crucial stress contributing factor is coping with expectation of oneself. Lysher Loh, as mentioned above, ended her life because she felt she did not do well enough for her mid year examinations.
Lastly, society and what society values, contributes highly to the stress of students. Society values outstanding students and promotes a get-good-grade-to-get-good-job-in-future mindset. With these, how can the young of Singapore not grow up in a stress-filled study environment? This way of thinking and living has seeped into our bones, shaped our lives and convinced society that this is a norm of Singapore.
A student’s life is continually filled with stress, however, looking at the generations of students who have graduated into the working world, I conclude that there stress can make us into someone great, or transform us into a failure, depending on how we deal with it. Stress, however, looking at the generations of students who have graduated into the working world, I conclude that there stress can make us into someone great, or transform us into a failure, depending on how we deal with it.

topic: how do you find the measures against bird flu viruses

2006-01-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

School have reopen and in the first week, all the schools around Singapore have requested that all their students will need to bring their thermometer. So what is the great concern for? All because of the recent deadly disease- the Avian flu, also known as the bird flu.

Many different methods of preventing bird flu have been suggested. Authorities in many countries have suggested that the people can purchase normal human flu vaccines. However, I felt that normal human flu vaccines might not be strong enough to be used against bird flu. Two drugs, Tamiflu and Relenza, have been suggested to be more effective. Even so, it is quite expensive. Thus not everyone will be able to afford. They are also in short supply. If there were to be a sudden outbreak of bird flu, they are unable to meet the demand of people. Also, they are not been tested. Which means that they might not be safe for consumption.

Other than using drugs and vaccines, we need to build up and maintain our immune system. We should take note of what we eat, ensuring that we have taken in the right amount of nutrients. We should also exercise regularly. A good vaccine but a bad immune system will not do much help.

Another way of preventing bird flu is to make sure we do not get up too close and personal with birds as birds flu are originated from birds. We also need to be more careful when it comes to handling birds as most cases of bird flu infection in humans have resulted from contact with infected poultry or contaminated surfaces.

No matter what, I felt that the most important thing is that everyone plays a part. We can think of as much prevention as possible, but everyone does not what he or she ought to do, it is still useless. Ultimately, it is up to each individual.

where's the excitment?!

2005-04-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

aiyo... after one yaer plus of serving GOD... i have seen people coming and laeving GOD... and some of them are the ones who are really close to me and have helped me a lot in this long journey... and also some have been under my care and i have seen them growing much!.... and then.... ... leave... it is really a petty sad thing... well... i may not be able to comprehend fully why they made that decision... but... i think that.. well... maybe they treated serving GOD as a mundane thingy... and has lost the significant of serving Him!!! haiz....

poor little soft toys... sob sob...

2005-03-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. our class deco is super special n unique lor!!! haha... very class who walk pass our class is like... "wow... this class is so childish lor..." ...i think our message wasn't delievered clearly... the theme was suppose to be a little scary isn't it.??? but i think the deco looks very cute... i think i really like it... it is very 'new'... the first time having this kind of class deco... cool sia!!! ...but i think starting is rather distracting... i kept looking up.. haha... but slowing then ok liao lor... reallly thanks for mr ong for giving such a good idea... haha... but thanks to the whole class man... everyone put in effort for the deco sia.... btw... after saying so long... i didn't say how the deco was like... haha... everyone took their own soft toys and hang it on the ceiling wif a black card on it... one side.... we write how were we in the past... then on the other side we wrote wat we would wanna see.... areas which we wanna improved on.... ya.. so that's about it.. haha... come and take a look.... haha..

GOD!!! give mi determination!!!

2005-03-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

arr... it's reallnot easy to over a sin that u have been struggling for years!!! it is really HARD!!! i really can't seems to stop myself!!! i really felt so filty... so unworthy of Him.... GOD... i really need u to really give mi the strength to overcome it!!! i noe i can't do it on my own.... i did u!!! help mi GOD!!! ...

yeah!!! praise GOD!!!

2005-03-20T00:08:00.000+08:00

haha... so happy... really wanna GOD sia... still remember that my grp's attandance sucks rite... WOWO!!! todae for service i have reach 5!!! haha... PRAISE GOD!!! for the past few weeks attandance have been 0.... 0..... n still 0but todae... FINALLY break 0!!! haha... i really see GOD doing miricales in my life man!!! those who r not committed also come... it was really such a great motivation to really trust GOD!!! that wateva may seem to impossible to us is always possible to Him!!! i am really so convicted that my whole unit can really hit 20 by end march... n i really so convicted man!!! GOD bless all...

api oh api...

2005-03-09T12:48:00.001+08:00

apinun... oh... such a poor thing... he is my leader..a on sat... we had our service and i didn't see hm.. so i ask my fren where is he.... so he say that api broke his nose... welll... coz he is usually quite lame.. s i tought that he was just merely joking... so i didn't take much notice of it... so after service we went to have our dinner... and they suddenly ask..." u wanna go visit api???" ... arr... " u mean it's true???!!!"oh no.... so we went to his hm... as he had went hm to rest after visiting the hospital... when i saw him... arr.. his face was swolen.. n specially his nose... it was such a sad thing to see!!! he had always been rather charming... really... he was handsome... and i think he must be very sad... haiz... he is really a poor thing... he had come to singapore from thailand and he is actually living alone... that means tat there is no one to look after him... sad... i have been visting him for bout 3 days liao... but on monday when we got to his hm.. oh god! his whole shirt was SOOooooooo bloody! ee...... n he was holding a towel in his hand putting at his nose to stop the bleeding... arr.. that hurt all our hearts.. he say that he have beeen bleeding since morning till we come... which is bout evening liao... his whole face was pale... n he just look so sick... while talking.. he suddenly went to the toilet.... n his nose stared to bleed again... it is really like the tap... just keep flowing n flowing... just wouln't stop.... i even took the pics of the bloody scene... really pray that he will really recover faster!!!! may GOD be with him always!!!

api oh papi...

2005-03-09T12:48:00.000+08:00

exam!!! arr!!!

2005-03-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

hiaz.. it's exam agin... this week have been very stressed for me. this whole week there is exam n i have beeen studying for quite hard already... i think so... haha... i have to follow-up on my guys... study for the exam.. preparation for the sec 1 camp... planning cg etc... arr.. very stressed! sometimes really feel so tired n feel like letting go of everything in my hands and just slack!!! ... but i know i can't afford to do so... yesterday as i am studying for my chemistry and physics... i toatlly could not concentrate... ni am just so distracted... i pray n pray... seeking GOD for peace within... haiz... thank GOd in the end i counld finally concentrate... but it was quite late lioa... no choice... like usual.. have to sleep at 12++am... todae when i sit for the paper and flip open the paper... i was really ... ... SHOCKED!!! there was quite some question about chapter 5 and i wondered... ' did teacher set the paper wrongly?' oh no! i didn't kinow that chap 5 was included and that means that i didn't study for it!!! shit la... comfirm get bad results one... haiz... ... tml is our last 2 paper and we can rest already... but teacher said that the a-math wil not be easy and mr ong told us that it is difficult.. oh no... better pray hard!!!

...dreams....

2005-02-23T13:18:00.000+08:00

dreams... dreams... dreams.... haha.. actually i dun really have a dream... by the way... is there a 'short-term dream' n 'long term dream'??? well... but i think in this 2 more years of my sec life... i really want to have a memorable experience! about 3 monhs had passed n i had some unforgetable things happening already.. such as the drama... n also the planning of proposal... n i am still expecting even more! yeah!!! but i think that so far... i really wanna excell in my studies!!! i am actually facing some difficulties in my physcis... n a little of my a- maths.. haiz.. i actually failed my a-maths test... but i am not very sad... dun noe y.. haha... so i think that i really wana do well in my studies... all of the subjects... n also.. i really wanna see junayuan having at least 10 'hope' people by this 2 years.. i really wanna bring more pple to know Him! coz i mysself have really experience Him in a very true way! actually... i really dun noe wat to write... so sorry ... but i think that many pple are really stressed out by all the up-coming test.. haha... so terrified by them... haha...

Yeah!!!

2005-02-23T12:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! GOD's hands finally moved!!! haha... praise GOD!!! u noe wat??? haha... i got to meet up wif 2 of my new believers! two of them i have not meet up wif them for more than 2 months liao... haha... i still got call them regularly to talk to them.. n i have been asking them out for bout 2 months liao.. n everytime they will say that they r 'BUSY'... haha... finally.. after much fasting n praying... i fially managed to meet them up!!! they were so willing... coz when i ask them whether they are free to come out... they jus ask mi where n wat time n they agree to meet mi up! haha.. so happy! one of them(cai jin)..i have nv seen him b4! he is from china n thou he is sec 1... but in fact he is same age as mi... n honestly.. i expected him to look quite nerdy n will not be that good-looking.. but when i saw him... ... wow... totally oppposite as wat i expected! haha.. he was actually quite tanned.. n...well... his look is beta than mine i think.. haha... we decided to go to his sch... springfield... at 2pm... but when i reached there.. ha told mi he will be late... so i waited him.. as time pass by.. i started to get impatient.. n also worried.. coz i'm meeting the other guy(mervin) at pasir ris at 3pm.. n now it's already 2.45... n worse still... i coudnt contact mervin as he nv bring hp to sch one... haha... finally i met up wif cai jin n i passed to him the card that i wrote for him n a bar of chocolate.. we didnt talk n i rushed to pasir ris... however when i reached there.. i could see him i felt quite bad.. haiz.. but suddenly... someone called mi n i saw that it was mervin's number! wow!!! so he asked mi whether wanna watch movie wif him... n of coz... i agreed!!! n we had a lot of fun n i got to noe him even beta!!!
haha... i think tat it was really GOD's plan!!! coz if i were to be so impatient n not wait for cai jin.. n if were to go n look for mervin.. which most probably.. i would jus meet for a while... then i will surely regret one.. haha... really thank god that i have been patient enough.. haha!!!

sad...sad...sad...sad....

2005-02-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

haiz... dun noe wat to say..haiz.... todae for ny caregroup... no one came... i was really sad.. jus yesterdae nite... when i was doing attendance... thre was only me myself n i COMFIRM going... then got 2 maybe coming... that nite i was really... REALLY.... SAD... being the normal emotional mi... .... i think u noe... i was jus so sad... i wanna do more for GOD! really MORE!!! but... y like that... haiz... really felt so helpless... then todae comfirm no one came..at that moment i was really devastated... really feel like crying out loud..... shouting someone... however... i cannot do that! haizzz.. so sad....

st john ambulance.... haha... haha..

2005-02-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

haha... being the st john ambulance was pretty fun... i nv actually imagine that i would be on the stage in this 4 yr of sec life...well... thou we only came out for a while(an extra... haha..) but before coming out... i was still quite nervous and really afraid that i would make any mistakes.. then everything will be mess up! it was really fun n it was really a life-learning experience for mi! i had nv acted in a drama... not even an extra.. haha... n also... i learnt to work wif pple whom i'm not very close wif... u noe.... ...actually hor... marcus told mi that he wanna act one cos he think that this will be a life-learning experience... i could still remembered the monday after rehersal... we are suppoesd help out the props n costumes team.. n i think that the class was united... even thou some of them still didnt really help... nomatter wat... it was a great fun acting out in the drama!!! thanks mr ong for putting in so much effort!!! thanks everybody!!!

...mini exam.... haiz...

2005-02-18T15:49:00.000+08:00

mini exams are coming liao!!! how?? haiz... out of all the subjects.. the subject that i afraid that will fail the most is... physic!!! arr... i'm really scared of failing physic.... there are still quite a some stuffs that i'm not very sure about..
chinese.. chinese..chineses.. it was the subject that i loved the most n the subject that i scored very well since young... however.. this year i star to lose interest in chinese... n does feel like studying bery hard for it... but i'll try my best...haha...
actually i had a lot of interest in maths... it is my fav sudject since sec 1... well a-maths is getting tougher n tougher liao.... scared cant scored very well in it... haiz.. but i think i can ba... cos i really like this subject...
btw... it is really haha.. i noe that doing early revision is good... but someone told me that he/she had started revison weeks ago... n i was like... diao... so early... i'm really horrified by these kind of very 'kiasu' pple... ee...
no matter wat.... i'm going to try my very best n really excell in my studies... n also ministry!!! i beta pray harder... haha... byez...

miss neo!!! Arr........

2005-02-18T15:39:00.000+08:00

todae... i was really pissed off by her... n i think i'm not the only one being pissed off.... haiz... how she mark the paper one??? aiyo... mark until like that... wrong ans also mark correct... haiz... n she always seems to be in her own world like that.... as if we really understand.... haiz.... however... when i cooled down... n i start to think thru... well... actually... it's not totally her fault... we should understand that she not very young liao... so if she marked wrongly... well.. can only blame her age.. haha... sound rather sacrastic... hehe... i feel quite bad bout always asking her so much questionS... but we really dun understand wat.... wheneve i dun understand... i would ask the pple ard mi first.. but when i asked them... they said..." do i look like i understand?" well i ask ard... about 4 or 5 pple... n i looked ard n see lots of blurred looks... so i asked lor.. but i dun noe whether i m asking too much n did i disturb the class... haiz... ...

year new!!!

2005-02-18T10:42:00.000+08:00

haha... i noe it's quite stupid to post a new year posting when new year is going to end... haha... this year is still the same.. money not more than $200... not this time is quite close to $200 liao... haha... dun be too greedy lor... haha.. but this time i would spending this money very differently... n will time spending the money like this... which to give for my church camp... haha.. i feel better spending my money like this... then to anyhow spend on things that r totally a waste of money...this i went to my frenz hm... n collected quite a lot liao... haha... alreday man yi liao.... haha... hope to be able to collect even more... haha...

it's all worth while after all!!!

2005-02-18T10:11:00.000+08:00

actually... when pple start to be absent from service n caregrp for bout 3 months... they will star to play slide(backslide)... haha... n my sheep(melvin) haven come for bout 3 months liao... n i m really so afraid to lose this sheep... i had lost one n was so so so so sad... ... n i really dun wanna see another one leaving! he is really very submissive... obedient... n he always desired for GOD! but since sch reopen... he was so busy to even meet mi or come for ss n cg... however... yesterdae i called him n talk to him... as we were talking.. i asked him..."how's your quiet time?"... n i ans mi..." i learnt something new... that is 'following GOD's way is alway easier n happier than walkin your own way..."... thou i was jus a simple sentence... i was really GREATLY encouraged...( being an emotion guy... honestly... i had tears in my eyes... haha...) n then i realized that all the fasting n praying was all worth while!!! wow... really so happy... n i decided to continue to fast n pray even more for grp!!! really thank GOD man!! hehe... GOD bless...

Y?! ...GOD... ....

2005-02-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

haiz... y is it like this? everytime wheneva we wanna grow the grp... GOD still to always be givng us probs... probs... n even more probs!!! honestly... i dun really like it... but there's the way GOD wanna grow us is it???? new believers went MIA... own cg pple start to backslide and i really dun really noe wat to do at this point of time... i have been fasting n praying for bout 3 weeks already... n during this 3 weeks.. GOD showed Himself real to mi! althou not ALL the probs r solved... but i really see things changing... better!!! finally... i could contact 2 out 0f the 3 new-believers... n im able to meet up wif my guys! really thank GOD man!!! haha... i will still continue to F&P till I really see GOD's hand moved so much... that almost all the probs r solved! ...

physics!!! how???

2005-01-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

arr... this fri got test leh! how??? not that i wanna blame HER... but... i really cant understand wat she talking... haiz.. n i really really find it so hard to catch up wif her... die liao!!!

CATCH!!!

2005-01-26T13:53:00.000+08:00

as i look into the clock, i see the clock's hands ticking and ticking, seconds by seconds, minutes by minutes, hours by hours, never will it cahnge. everyday, people all around the world have been trying very hard to catch up with time, howvever, they forever does not seems to be able to do so, espcially the adults who are growing older everyday. they elder woman are always going to beauty salon, doing all sorts of facial treatment, all for just one reason, which is to deceive themselves. so that everytime they look into the mirror, they could tell themselves that "hey, i am still young"! nowadys, it is not just the women who like to go to all these beauty salon, but even the guys would like to go! well, people nowadays, can only use this one word to describe, which is 'vain'!!!

finally!!!

2005-01-21T15:40:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! finally... i am able to meet up wif one of my new believer liao!!! haha... it has been bout one plus week since i meet up wif him and impart something to him liao... now i'm at his hm... his eating his chocolate... n i m now blogging... haha... later going to have steamboat at one of the leaders hm!!! haha... only have bout $20... dun noe wat can we buy..haha... really so happy that todae we have a holiday... finally can rest liao! haha... but so sad... cant slack one... next week got 3 test... AHH~!! i better pray hard bout it!!! btw... thanks mr jae! for putting in so much effort for our class! thanks... GOD bless.... HERE I COME... STEAMBOAT!!! hee...

frenz 4eva???

2005-01-17T21:40:00.000+08:00

is there really a fren who is really 4eva??? i really dun noe... but wat my form teacher, jae, said todae really struck mi man! previously.. i was facing some probx in my frenship wif my best frenz.. n i didnt noe wat to do... n todae talking bout the topics 'frenz'... he was saying that in our life that r 2 kinds of frenz... one is incident frenz... they r frenz who r happen to be there n these kind of frenz wouldnt last long... however there r another kind of frenz...< i forgot wat is that> they r thosr kind of TRUE fren who will really be there for us if we need help... there will be there to hold your hands u r going to fall down! and that is the kind of frenz that we r really looking isnt it??? he also say that if we raelly wanna the frenship to last... we cant jus sit there n expect the frenship to get closer...we have to take initiative! n i agree wif that! althou i noe all this... ut todae it somehow struck mi hard on the face! raelly... let's take the initiative to bring our relationship wif our best frenz closer! haha... take care n GOD bless....

OrAnGe?!!

2005-01-14T10:08:00.000+08:00

orange? what is that? i have never ever get the chance to see it! NEVER! in my world, there is only black and white, and nothing else! from the day i was born till now, i have never really experience this word 'colourful' and honestly, to me this word '9colourful' have already expired in my dictionary! since primary 1, i have learn all the colours-orange, blue, red, yellow etc. however i cannot see them. since primary school, i have never like the subject 'art and craft'! all i can do is just draw and draw and draw, and never be able to colour at all! nowadays, colouur-blind is quite common and people are not very surprised if they know of someone whho is like that. however there are still a group of people who likes to make fun of us, this people whose world is only black and white! we may seems to be happy-go-lucky and may not seems to be affected by what they say, but actually, deep down in our hearts, we really felt so hurt by their words, as if they were like arrows piercing through our hearts! forget it! these people just could not be bother! they will never be able to understand how we feel! ...